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Things Happen II 5/11
A/N: I seriously hope no one reads the tags before they come in here to read the fic otherwise I would be so dead. *protects Hannie and Sungmin* That is as much warning as you guys are getting and maybe you'll understand and I won't need to protect them and if that's the case then...*protects Siwon* He's innocent here. lol so guys thank you so much for the comments. Babies I love you all and I was very flattered that I got such strong reactions for the last chapter. That means I am doing a good job and I love you all for the support and here is the next chapter.
Sungmin was rocking him gently. Hankyung’s head was resting on his shoulder. He wanted comfort, needed it in a way that scared him. When Sungmin moved he made a strangled noise and pulled him back down.
“It’s okay.” Sungmin whispered. “I’m not going anywhere. I just need to get you something hot to drink. Wait, here. I’m just going to the kitchen.”
Hankyung let him go. His eyes stared at nothing as he heard Sungmin move things in the kitchen. He didn’t know what to do. He had thought about his and Heechul’s future a lot lately. He had imagined that something like this would happen eventually seeing how his father was. But, he had always expected, always assumed that it would be a woman who stole Heechul away from him. He thought he would have to compete with a model one day and really there was no competition there.
He had never expected this. He had never expected another man. How was he supposed to compete with that?
“Here.” Sungmin said handing him a cup of coffee.
Hankyung breathed in the smell. He took a drink and it was perfect.
“Thank you.” He said.
Sungmin had never left him. Sungmin knew him so well, knew him better in some ways than Heechul did. Heechul had never bothered to learn about Hankyung’s obsession with coffee. Heechul didn’t know how to convince Hankyung to wear the strangest clothes. Heechul took no interest in that. Sungmin did. Sungmin forced him out of his comfort zone. Sungmin offered that shoulder he so very much needed.
“Sungmin.” He whispered taking the younger man into his arms.
Hankyung closed his eyes and breathed in the unfamiliar scent. He smelled strawberries and warmth. He leaned forward and pressed his face against Sungmin’s neck.
“H…Hankyung.”
He heard the tremor in Sungmin’s voice and it was nice.
“Sungmin.” He breathed. “Sungmin, I need you.”
“Hankyung.” Sungmin said trying to move away. “You don’t want to do this.”
Hankyung looked up into Sungmin’s eyes. He did want this. He wanted it so badly. He needed it. He needed Sungmin. He needed a way out, some release.
“Sungmin, I need you, please.”
He didn’t know exactly why he said it. He just knew that there was Sungmin, Sungmin who had never once denied him anything, Sungmin who offered him comfort, Sungmin who had once wanted him, Sungmin who would never leave. It was confusion more than anything that drove him forward.
Sungmin or Heechul? Heechul who’s laugh made him breathless. Heechul who’s smile meant the world to him, Heechul who could hurt him so very easily, Heechul who knew what to say to make him hurt, Heechul who sometimes took things too far.
Or Sungmin. Sungmin who’s laugh was addictive. Sungmin who’s smile brought out his own, Sungmin who would never hurt him, Sungmin who knew how to make the pain go away, Sungmin who never let things get out of hand.
“Sungmin.” He whispered, still trying to figure out what he wanted.
“Hankyung, think for a second.” Sungmin pleaded. “Heechul. You love Heechul.”
He loved Heechul? He loved Heechul. But, Heechul was with someone else now, someone who seemed very attached, someone who liked him, someone who Heechul hadn’t minded holding hands with. Heechul never held hands with anyone, except Hankyung. He would hang off of people’s arms, but he never held hands that way with them. That was for the two of them, their own way of recognizing each other, their only form of intimacy in front of the rest of the world.
He loved Heechul, but Heechul had thrown everything away with that one word. Fiancé. What the hell? Even if Heechul loved him, no, even though Heechul loved him, he couldn’t let it go. He couldn’t erase that smirk, that glow in his eyes, that wink. What had Heechul been trying to tell him? A joke?
If it was a joke, it was a cruel one. He hadn’t seen Heechul in so long, way too long. How could he come back and with a joke like that no less? Hankyung didn’t understand, not even Heechul could be that cold. Hadn’t he missed him at all? Or had he known that he would come back, that it would only be matter of time before he saw Hankyung again.
But, Hankyung hadn’t known. Hankyung had sat through sleepless nights, returning nightmares, helpless thoughts. Hankyung had wished everyone away, had practically thrown everything away, with just the thought that he might never see Heechul again. Didn’t that mean something? Didn’t that count for something? He had waited so long and now Heechul was doing this.
“Sungmin. Please. Make it go away.” He whispered his voice a hoarse plea.
“Hankyung.” Sungmin said taking his face in his hands. “Hankyung, if I knew how to make it go away, believe me, I would. I don’t like seeing you like this, but you have to know that what you were going to do is not that way. You have to—“
But, Hankyung didn’t care anymore. He had made his decision, or more precisely, this moment had made the decision for him. He leaned forward and pressed his lips to Sungmin. He felt the protests, heard the words, but he couldn’t be denied, didn’t want to be denied. He was drowning and this was the fastest way to get free, to save himself.
He eased the last of Sungmin’s restraint by pressing his lips to the other man’s neck. He bit down and felt the breath come out of Sungmin in a gasp. He moved the coffee cup away and leaned back into the couch pulling Sungmin fully onto his lap. He kissed him wishing with all his heart that the pain would go away.
“Hankyung.” Sungmin spoke into this mouth. “Stop.”
But, he didn’t stop. He stood up and carried Sungmin with him. What was he doing? He threw Sungmin down on the bed. Did he really want this? He moved forward.
“Heechul.”
He froze, his heart wrenching painfully at the name. Heechul. Heechul. Heechul.
“You can’t do it.” Sungmin said pushing him away.
Heechul. Heechul with his hand in Siwon’s. Heechul with his mocking smile. Heechul with his hands in Hankyung’s hair, lost to the world. Heechul whispering sweet words. Heechul leaving him. Heechul denying his phone calls. Heechul showering him with gifts. Heechul winking. Heechul smirking. Heechul and Siwon.
Siwon.
Heechul and Siwon.
He leaned forward, no longer caring. His lips fought Sungmin, his hands holding him down. He wanted to hear his name come out of those lips, wanted to see if Sungmin really did taste like strawberry, wanted to know what it would feel like to make Heechul hurt. He wanted it more than anything.
He heard Sungmin vaguely, but could only concentrate on one thing: Heechul. This was for Heechul, to show Heechul that he didn’t depend on him, didn’t need him, wasn’t going to wait forever, that he had people who loved him too, that he could make it hurt if he wanted to, that Siwon or no Siwon, Hankyung was the one in charge, that he would make it even, that he didn’t care.
But, he did. He did care. He cared more than anything. He cared that Heechul had been gone so long. He cared that Siwon had been holding his hand. He cared that he had never once gotten to hug Heechul, not in public. He cared that he was now forcing himself on Sungmin who’s eyes were round and who was in love with Kyuhyun.
He groaned and rolled away. Sungmin didn’t look too happy.
“What the fuck Hankyung? What the hell were you going to do?”
“I don’t know, Min. I don’t know.”
***
“What are we going to do?” Sungmin asked sometime later.
Hankyung’s head was on Sungmin’s lap as they sat on the couch. He closed his eyes and leaned into Sungmin. He wanted the warmth.
“What do you want me to do?” Hankyung asked.
“You could always take me out for dinner.” Sungmin laughed attempting a joke.
“We never talk about this again?” Hankyung asked.
“Never talk about this again.” Sungmin said getting up.
“Don’t go yet.” Hankyung said.
Sungmin smiled. He turned around and pulled Hankyung against him. Hankyung closed his eyes as Sungmin placed a kiss on his forehead.
“Are you better?”
“Yeah.” Hankyung answered.
“Okay, I’m going to go now.”
Hankyung nodded. He watched Sungmin smile and wave and watched him leave. He threw himself down on his bed wondering what exactly he had just done and with who. Sungmin was practically in love Kyuhyun and he liked Kyuhyun.
What had he done?
He rolled out of bed and picked up the things he had thrown on the floor. He dropped them in the basket and went to shower. He stood under the scalding water wanting to wash out everything, not Sungmin, just everything else.
“What the fuck did I do?” he asked himself as he stepped into clean pants.
He walked out drying his hair on his towel.
“You need to stop that. You look so hot with that water all over.”
Hankyung froze mid wipe. He looked up at Heechul who was leaning against his bed. Hankyung threw a quick glance at the sheets and wondered why Heechul hadn’t said anything about them yet, as if the sheets would tell Heechul that he’d been making out with Sungmin there moments before. He dropped his towel and other clothes on top of the sheets consciously aware of how Heechul’s eyes never left him.
“What do you want?” he asked.
“Why did you run away from me?”
Hankyung raised an eyebrow. “Was I supposed to stay? After that show you put on? After you paraded your fiancé in front of me? I’m not that strong Heechul.”
Hankyung turned. He folded his arms around himself and willed Heechul out the door.
“Don’t be stupid.” Heechul said wrapping his arms around Hankyung. “I want you.”
“You want me?” Hankyung asked. “Siwon?”
“I want you stupid.” Heechul said. “Siwon is a friend. He’s helping me with something. I left because my father wanted me to find someone to marry. He paraded girls in front of me and I decided to mess with his freaking mind. I’m not really engaged to Siwon. He’s too tall for my taste.”
“I’m tall.” Hankyung said not sure why he was smiling so much.
“But, I like you. You have the best legs in the world. I love them.”
Hankyung turned around. He took Heechul’s face in his hands. He loved those dark eyes and the way they smiled up at him.
“You love me?”
“Shut up.” Heechul snapped. “I hate you.”
“No,” Hankyung said. “Not yet. It’s too soon.”
He leaned his head on top of Heechul’s. He didn’t want to think. He had Heechul again. What more could he want now?
“Hankyung.” Heechul breathed against his ear. “Hankyung, I missed you, missed you so much.”
Hankyung didn’t ask for permission. He took Heechul’s face in his hands and kissed him. He had missed it, missed it too much. He felt Heechul’s hands in his hair, but lost track of them after a while. He was focused solely on Heechul’s lips, his warm breath.
“Heechul.” He said gasping as he found out where exactly Heechul’s hands were. “Wait.”
But, Heechul didn’t listen. He was silenced by firm lips.
“Hankyung, I need you.”
Hankyung muttered his protests into Heechul’s lips. It wasn’t that he didn’t want Heechul, he thought as Heechul pulled him towards the bed. It was the damn bed and what he had been doing on it just minutes before.
“Heechul, wait.” He said pulling away.
“What?” Heechul answered slipping his hands over Hankyung’s bare chest.
Hankyung allowed himself one strangled breath. He leaned his head against Heechul and moved to run his own hands over the other man. He heard Heechul’s delicious moan in his ear and he almost forgot why he had been so hesitant. Almost.
“Hankyung.”
Heechul’s moan was too familiar. Hankyung moved his hands away. He pushed off Heechul and ran into the bathroom. He closed the door behind him and sank down to the floor, his back against the wall. He tried to remember how to breathe and couldn’t.
“Hankyung! Hankyung, open the damn door. What the hell are you doing?” Heechul yelled pounding on the door. “I haven’t seen you in weeks. Get out here now.”
“I can’t.” Hankyung called back desperate. “I can’t Heechul. Sungmin.”
“Sungmin? What does Sungmin have to do with this?”
Hankyung wrapped his arms around his legs. He buried his face in his knees and tried not to cry. He hated himself. It was official. If he ever doubted how worthless he was, he was proving it to himself now. What had he done to Sungmin?
“I…We…Sungmin.” Hankyung said.
He waited. He knew Heechul understood. There was no way Heechul didn’t understand. He heard nothing, not one sound as the minutes dragged on and on.
“You and Sungmin did what exactly? You slept with him?”
“NO! Oh God, no. No!” Hankyung said his eyes going wide.
“Open the door.”
“It’s unlocked.” Hankyung whispered.
He felt the door open and he fell back. He was looking upside down at Heechul who kneeled down to look at him. They looked at each other and Hankyung could see the hurt in Heechul’s eyes. He reached up to touch that face, to do something to erase that look, but Heechul shoved his hand away.
Hankyung watched him as Heechul’s hands cupped his face. They looked at each other as Heechul brought his lips over Hankyung’s. The kiss was slow, soft, searching. It was asking a question, whispering an answer, sealing something. Hankyung didn’t know what it was. He didn’t care. He reached up to touch Heechul’s hair, the hair he was so obsessed with. He let his hand fall softly and waited as Heechul pulled away.
“Get up.”
He did what he was told. He stood and looked at Heechul. He didn’t know what he was expecting, but it certainly wasn’t the hug that Heechul gave him. It wasn’t a normal hug. It was scared. It was trying to figure out something.
“Come to bed.” Heechul whispered. “I need you to hold me tonight.”
“But, what about Sungmin?” Hankyung asked confused.
“What about him? What do you want me to do? Do you want me to go kill that…” Heechul took a deep breath. “Do you want me to go do what I want to do? Do you want me to make it even for you? Should I go to Siwon or Kyuhyun?”
“No.”
“Then, just shut up and make me forget. Hold me and tell me that you love me, not him. Tell me that you were stupid, so very stupid and that you wish you could erase it all.”
“I love you.” Hankyung said immediately. “I love you so much Heechul. I was stupid, so stupid and hurt and confused. I missed you so much. And then you had to tell me that you were engaged? I’m so sorry.”
He heard Heechul sigh into his neck. “I need to sleep.”
Hankyung said nothing. He pulled Heechul onto the bed and wrapped his arms tightly, protectively around him.
“Hankyung?”
“Hm?”
“I’m going to kill you tomorrow.”
A/N: So? Uh...I seriously have no explanation for what happened. And uh, more Hanchul fluff in the next chapter. So's my bbs what did you guys think?
Sungmin was rocking him gently. Hankyung’s head was resting on his shoulder. He wanted comfort, needed it in a way that scared him. When Sungmin moved he made a strangled noise and pulled him back down.
“It’s okay.” Sungmin whispered. “I’m not going anywhere. I just need to get you something hot to drink. Wait, here. I’m just going to the kitchen.”
Hankyung let him go. His eyes stared at nothing as he heard Sungmin move things in the kitchen. He didn’t know what to do. He had thought about his and Heechul’s future a lot lately. He had imagined that something like this would happen eventually seeing how his father was. But, he had always expected, always assumed that it would be a woman who stole Heechul away from him. He thought he would have to compete with a model one day and really there was no competition there.
He had never expected this. He had never expected another man. How was he supposed to compete with that?
“Here.” Sungmin said handing him a cup of coffee.
Hankyung breathed in the smell. He took a drink and it was perfect.
“Thank you.” He said.
Sungmin had never left him. Sungmin knew him so well, knew him better in some ways than Heechul did. Heechul had never bothered to learn about Hankyung’s obsession with coffee. Heechul didn’t know how to convince Hankyung to wear the strangest clothes. Heechul took no interest in that. Sungmin did. Sungmin forced him out of his comfort zone. Sungmin offered that shoulder he so very much needed.
“Sungmin.” He whispered taking the younger man into his arms.
Hankyung closed his eyes and breathed in the unfamiliar scent. He smelled strawberries and warmth. He leaned forward and pressed his face against Sungmin’s neck.
“H…Hankyung.”
He heard the tremor in Sungmin’s voice and it was nice.
“Sungmin.” He breathed. “Sungmin, I need you.”
“Hankyung.” Sungmin said trying to move away. “You don’t want to do this.”
Hankyung looked up into Sungmin’s eyes. He did want this. He wanted it so badly. He needed it. He needed Sungmin. He needed a way out, some release.
“Sungmin, I need you, please.”
He didn’t know exactly why he said it. He just knew that there was Sungmin, Sungmin who had never once denied him anything, Sungmin who offered him comfort, Sungmin who had once wanted him, Sungmin who would never leave. It was confusion more than anything that drove him forward.
Sungmin or Heechul? Heechul who’s laugh made him breathless. Heechul who’s smile meant the world to him, Heechul who could hurt him so very easily, Heechul who knew what to say to make him hurt, Heechul who sometimes took things too far.
Or Sungmin. Sungmin who’s laugh was addictive. Sungmin who’s smile brought out his own, Sungmin who would never hurt him, Sungmin who knew how to make the pain go away, Sungmin who never let things get out of hand.
“Sungmin.” He whispered, still trying to figure out what he wanted.
“Hankyung, think for a second.” Sungmin pleaded. “Heechul. You love Heechul.”
He loved Heechul? He loved Heechul. But, Heechul was with someone else now, someone who seemed very attached, someone who liked him, someone who Heechul hadn’t minded holding hands with. Heechul never held hands with anyone, except Hankyung. He would hang off of people’s arms, but he never held hands that way with them. That was for the two of them, their own way of recognizing each other, their only form of intimacy in front of the rest of the world.
He loved Heechul, but Heechul had thrown everything away with that one word. Fiancé. What the hell? Even if Heechul loved him, no, even though Heechul loved him, he couldn’t let it go. He couldn’t erase that smirk, that glow in his eyes, that wink. What had Heechul been trying to tell him? A joke?
If it was a joke, it was a cruel one. He hadn’t seen Heechul in so long, way too long. How could he come back and with a joke like that no less? Hankyung didn’t understand, not even Heechul could be that cold. Hadn’t he missed him at all? Or had he known that he would come back, that it would only be matter of time before he saw Hankyung again.
But, Hankyung hadn’t known. Hankyung had sat through sleepless nights, returning nightmares, helpless thoughts. Hankyung had wished everyone away, had practically thrown everything away, with just the thought that he might never see Heechul again. Didn’t that mean something? Didn’t that count for something? He had waited so long and now Heechul was doing this.
“Sungmin. Please. Make it go away.” He whispered his voice a hoarse plea.
“Hankyung.” Sungmin said taking his face in his hands. “Hankyung, if I knew how to make it go away, believe me, I would. I don’t like seeing you like this, but you have to know that what you were going to do is not that way. You have to—“
But, Hankyung didn’t care anymore. He had made his decision, or more precisely, this moment had made the decision for him. He leaned forward and pressed his lips to Sungmin. He felt the protests, heard the words, but he couldn’t be denied, didn’t want to be denied. He was drowning and this was the fastest way to get free, to save himself.
He eased the last of Sungmin’s restraint by pressing his lips to the other man’s neck. He bit down and felt the breath come out of Sungmin in a gasp. He moved the coffee cup away and leaned back into the couch pulling Sungmin fully onto his lap. He kissed him wishing with all his heart that the pain would go away.
“Hankyung.” Sungmin spoke into this mouth. “Stop.”
But, he didn’t stop. He stood up and carried Sungmin with him. What was he doing? He threw Sungmin down on the bed. Did he really want this? He moved forward.
“Heechul.”
He froze, his heart wrenching painfully at the name. Heechul. Heechul. Heechul.
“You can’t do it.” Sungmin said pushing him away.
Heechul. Heechul with his hand in Siwon’s. Heechul with his mocking smile. Heechul with his hands in Hankyung’s hair, lost to the world. Heechul whispering sweet words. Heechul leaving him. Heechul denying his phone calls. Heechul showering him with gifts. Heechul winking. Heechul smirking. Heechul and Siwon.
Siwon.
Heechul and Siwon.
He leaned forward, no longer caring. His lips fought Sungmin, his hands holding him down. He wanted to hear his name come out of those lips, wanted to see if Sungmin really did taste like strawberry, wanted to know what it would feel like to make Heechul hurt. He wanted it more than anything.
He heard Sungmin vaguely, but could only concentrate on one thing: Heechul. This was for Heechul, to show Heechul that he didn’t depend on him, didn’t need him, wasn’t going to wait forever, that he had people who loved him too, that he could make it hurt if he wanted to, that Siwon or no Siwon, Hankyung was the one in charge, that he would make it even, that he didn’t care.
But, he did. He did care. He cared more than anything. He cared that Heechul had been gone so long. He cared that Siwon had been holding his hand. He cared that he had never once gotten to hug Heechul, not in public. He cared that he was now forcing himself on Sungmin who’s eyes were round and who was in love with Kyuhyun.
He groaned and rolled away. Sungmin didn’t look too happy.
“What the fuck Hankyung? What the hell were you going to do?”
“I don’t know, Min. I don’t know.”
***
“What are we going to do?” Sungmin asked sometime later.
Hankyung’s head was on Sungmin’s lap as they sat on the couch. He closed his eyes and leaned into Sungmin. He wanted the warmth.
“What do you want me to do?” Hankyung asked.
“You could always take me out for dinner.” Sungmin laughed attempting a joke.
“We never talk about this again?” Hankyung asked.
“Never talk about this again.” Sungmin said getting up.
“Don’t go yet.” Hankyung said.
Sungmin smiled. He turned around and pulled Hankyung against him. Hankyung closed his eyes as Sungmin placed a kiss on his forehead.
“Are you better?”
“Yeah.” Hankyung answered.
“Okay, I’m going to go now.”
Hankyung nodded. He watched Sungmin smile and wave and watched him leave. He threw himself down on his bed wondering what exactly he had just done and with who. Sungmin was practically in love Kyuhyun and he liked Kyuhyun.
What had he done?
He rolled out of bed and picked up the things he had thrown on the floor. He dropped them in the basket and went to shower. He stood under the scalding water wanting to wash out everything, not Sungmin, just everything else.
“What the fuck did I do?” he asked himself as he stepped into clean pants.
He walked out drying his hair on his towel.
“You need to stop that. You look so hot with that water all over.”
Hankyung froze mid wipe. He looked up at Heechul who was leaning against his bed. Hankyung threw a quick glance at the sheets and wondered why Heechul hadn’t said anything about them yet, as if the sheets would tell Heechul that he’d been making out with Sungmin there moments before. He dropped his towel and other clothes on top of the sheets consciously aware of how Heechul’s eyes never left him.
“What do you want?” he asked.
“Why did you run away from me?”
Hankyung raised an eyebrow. “Was I supposed to stay? After that show you put on? After you paraded your fiancé in front of me? I’m not that strong Heechul.”
Hankyung turned. He folded his arms around himself and willed Heechul out the door.
“Don’t be stupid.” Heechul said wrapping his arms around Hankyung. “I want you.”
“You want me?” Hankyung asked. “Siwon?”
“I want you stupid.” Heechul said. “Siwon is a friend. He’s helping me with something. I left because my father wanted me to find someone to marry. He paraded girls in front of me and I decided to mess with his freaking mind. I’m not really engaged to Siwon. He’s too tall for my taste.”
“I’m tall.” Hankyung said not sure why he was smiling so much.
“But, I like you. You have the best legs in the world. I love them.”
Hankyung turned around. He took Heechul’s face in his hands. He loved those dark eyes and the way they smiled up at him.
“You love me?”
“Shut up.” Heechul snapped. “I hate you.”
“No,” Hankyung said. “Not yet. It’s too soon.”
He leaned his head on top of Heechul’s. He didn’t want to think. He had Heechul again. What more could he want now?
“Hankyung.” Heechul breathed against his ear. “Hankyung, I missed you, missed you so much.”
Hankyung didn’t ask for permission. He took Heechul’s face in his hands and kissed him. He had missed it, missed it too much. He felt Heechul’s hands in his hair, but lost track of them after a while. He was focused solely on Heechul’s lips, his warm breath.
“Heechul.” He said gasping as he found out where exactly Heechul’s hands were. “Wait.”
But, Heechul didn’t listen. He was silenced by firm lips.
“Hankyung, I need you.”
Hankyung muttered his protests into Heechul’s lips. It wasn’t that he didn’t want Heechul, he thought as Heechul pulled him towards the bed. It was the damn bed and what he had been doing on it just minutes before.
“Heechul, wait.” He said pulling away.
“What?” Heechul answered slipping his hands over Hankyung’s bare chest.
Hankyung allowed himself one strangled breath. He leaned his head against Heechul and moved to run his own hands over the other man. He heard Heechul’s delicious moan in his ear and he almost forgot why he had been so hesitant. Almost.
“Hankyung.”
Heechul’s moan was too familiar. Hankyung moved his hands away. He pushed off Heechul and ran into the bathroom. He closed the door behind him and sank down to the floor, his back against the wall. He tried to remember how to breathe and couldn’t.
“Hankyung! Hankyung, open the damn door. What the hell are you doing?” Heechul yelled pounding on the door. “I haven’t seen you in weeks. Get out here now.”
“I can’t.” Hankyung called back desperate. “I can’t Heechul. Sungmin.”
“Sungmin? What does Sungmin have to do with this?”
Hankyung wrapped his arms around his legs. He buried his face in his knees and tried not to cry. He hated himself. It was official. If he ever doubted how worthless he was, he was proving it to himself now. What had he done to Sungmin?
“I…We…Sungmin.” Hankyung said.
He waited. He knew Heechul understood. There was no way Heechul didn’t understand. He heard nothing, not one sound as the minutes dragged on and on.
“You and Sungmin did what exactly? You slept with him?”
“NO! Oh God, no. No!” Hankyung said his eyes going wide.
“Open the door.”
“It’s unlocked.” Hankyung whispered.
He felt the door open and he fell back. He was looking upside down at Heechul who kneeled down to look at him. They looked at each other and Hankyung could see the hurt in Heechul’s eyes. He reached up to touch that face, to do something to erase that look, but Heechul shoved his hand away.
Hankyung watched him as Heechul’s hands cupped his face. They looked at each other as Heechul brought his lips over Hankyung’s. The kiss was slow, soft, searching. It was asking a question, whispering an answer, sealing something. Hankyung didn’t know what it was. He didn’t care. He reached up to touch Heechul’s hair, the hair he was so obsessed with. He let his hand fall softly and waited as Heechul pulled away.
“Get up.”
He did what he was told. He stood and looked at Heechul. He didn’t know what he was expecting, but it certainly wasn’t the hug that Heechul gave him. It wasn’t a normal hug. It was scared. It was trying to figure out something.
“Come to bed.” Heechul whispered. “I need you to hold me tonight.”
“But, what about Sungmin?” Hankyung asked confused.
“What about him? What do you want me to do? Do you want me to go kill that…” Heechul took a deep breath. “Do you want me to go do what I want to do? Do you want me to make it even for you? Should I go to Siwon or Kyuhyun?”
“No.”
“Then, just shut up and make me forget. Hold me and tell me that you love me, not him. Tell me that you were stupid, so very stupid and that you wish you could erase it all.”
“I love you.” Hankyung said immediately. “I love you so much Heechul. I was stupid, so stupid and hurt and confused. I missed you so much. And then you had to tell me that you were engaged? I’m so sorry.”
He heard Heechul sigh into his neck. “I need to sleep.”
Hankyung said nothing. He pulled Heechul onto the bed and wrapped his arms tightly, protectively around him.
“Hankyung?”
“Hm?”
“I’m going to kill you tomorrow.”
A/N: So? Uh...I seriously have no explanation for what happened. And uh, more Hanchul fluff in the next chapter. So's my bbs what did you guys think?
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Hahaha. *off to read*
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p.s Sorry for the late reply. Just back from another shopping sphree lol
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What the heck, Heechul? Why couldn't he have pulled Hankyung aside BEFORE announcing that Siwon was his fiance? *smacks him*
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anyways...
OMG! hanchul fluff! oh hannie you were confused and hurt, and chullie forgave you its okay, don't feel bad with what happened with sungmin... i wonder what kyuhyun would say if he found out... i love how heechul can go from being 'heechul' to a small sad insecure child, hannie will always be with u chullie! hehe~ i bet hangeng would look hot coming out of the shower like that >///< its kinda funny, but not really, when heechul asks if he should do the same thing with siwon or kyuhyun and hannie just answers no right away. i love heechul at the end :)
haha i feel like i wrote alot >< this chapter made my day, i'm glad that hanchul is okay and happy together, now they only have to deal with heechul's father...
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OMG! *o* Hankyung, are you out of mind? You love Heechul for God's sake! There are other ways to show Heechul you don't need him. Just don't rape our innocent Sungminnie and don't mess with Kyumin. I know you're not doing it on purpose but you have to be strong. Well, at least Min comforted him.
I think I'm overacting again. *o* >.<
Gosh, Heechul is back!
So Siwon is innocent here? And I was about to hate him :D
Aww, Hanchul so sweet! <3 I'm glad everything's fine between them. ^^
LOL at the last sentece! :D
Geez, I always get so excited that I feel stupid! >.<
So yeah, I really enjoyed this chapter as you can see. Maybe too much. I have to control my emotions! o.O
ily babe~ <333
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aww~~ i'll never forget u too~~ :)
OMG!!! WTH was that!! thank god minnie manage to stop hankyung before he make the BIGGEST mistake ever!! poor minnie.. *hugs minnie* :)
seriously, NEVER EVER jump to conclusion before u know the truth, havent he learn anything from eunhae. tsk..
but im SOOO glad that siwon wasnt really heechul's fiance, there's no need to hate him then.. *kidding* ;)
im soo proud that hankyung tells the truth to heechul rather than he found out from someone else n another misunderstanding happen AGAIN. sigh~~
hankyung, go hug him n never let him go EVER!! XDD
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YAY HANCHUL TOGETHER AGAIN!!! aleskfjslkfjsldfj I'm so happy and excited for them! xDD
You had me worried a couple times during that chapter though! (*eeek why must you continue to make me all nervous and think there will be problems with my OTP?? lol just kidding you know I love it!) I really loved how throughout the whole thing with Sungmin Hankyung couldn't get his mind off of Heechul. Yay for Hanchul!
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I can't believe you easily lost faith in Heechul....
not that i could blame you or anythingso~ Heechul is forgiving if he's madly in love with someone ,huh~;D
Hankyung's a very lucky guy~
I wonder just what is Heechul's plan???
can't wait to see the next update~~
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Oh, Heechul has a plan alright. You'll see. =)
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And as always I'm super glad you take time to comment on the style of writing too. Thank you so much. It means a lot =)
And yes, more Hanchul fluff in the next chapter...if you can call it fluff.
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I'm so glad you loved it. That makes me happy =)
Yes, they're back together forever! *pauses*
Forever!
I love you too and yay enjoy your day at school. <3
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Thanks for commenting. =)
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Don't worry, I'll protect Minnie. XD
Heechul won't kill anyone and he knows it. =)
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BUT hankyung still loves heechul so much that it hurts his pride!
thank god nothing happened to hanmin and heechul was understanding enough to let go of what just happened... hanchul couple does have a very good communication and understanding in their relationship...
again, thanks for the consistent update! ;p
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Thanks for being so understanding and no problem. Constant updates are my thing =)
I'm glad you're liking the story.
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BUT!!... on any events I'm so happy right now :D... I knew horsey would never be a bad guy... he always helps heechul that poor little thing...
hankyung was going to lose it with poor sungmin... its weird that all the time while I was reading I was thinking about poor kyuhyun XD
I LOVE this chapter... you prove to me everyday that your writing is amazing and you always keep with your promises
*hugyou* and *hugkyuhyun*
one more thing... I love you so much dear ^^
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I know. Kyuhyunnie *hugs Kyu* I am so sorry. I might have said this like a million times already, but i just love KYU and i'm so mean to him.
Thank you so much. *hugs back*
I love you tooooooo!!!!!!!! <33333333333333
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Kay, here goes.
I think I owe you a long comment.
First of all, the cute guy in my icon is none other than Kevin from U-Kiss. I'm a lot of things other than ELF and Kiss Me is one of them.
Second of all, I keep getting the email notification of your replies when I'm at school, so when I read them I get all sad again because of what was happening in the fic, so I feel like crying in class in front of a whole bunch of people who probably don't even know what livejournal is.
And lastly....
OHMYGOD I (excuse the language) FUGGING LOVE YOU OKAY. I STARTED CRYING HALFWAY THROUGH AND DIDN'T STOP UNTIL THE END. EVEN THOUGH RIGHT NOW MY EYES ARE DRY, WHEN I FIRST WROTE OUT THIS COMMENT, MY EYES WERE STILL WET, BUT THEN LJ HAD TO GO AND SCREW UP ON ME BUT THAT'S BESIDES THE POINT.
I LOVE YOU FOR THIS CHAPTER, YOU HAVE NO IDEA. BUT I'M KINDA MAD BECAUSE YOU'RE MAKING ME 'SHIP HANMIN, BUT IT'S OKAY BECAUSE I LOVED THIS CHAPTER AND I LOVE YOU FOR WRITING IT :'DDDDDDDD
/HAPPY DANCING LIKE CRAZY YOU HAVE NO IDEA :DDD
/caps lock off
lol, anyway, you know I think this fic has been affecting my real life, too because I've been a bit down lately but now I feel so happy and energized (well not that much anymore because LJ screwed up on me and now I have to retype this but anyway) :'DDDDDD
I CAN GO TO SLEEP HAPPY TONIGHT, LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
I should probably stop proclaiming my love for you and this chapter but ri ruv roo.
lol, sorry, /fail scooby talk
So I should probably go now. The rest of your readers will probably see this comment and think you have some crazy stalker/mean and rude reader or something lololololol.
<3
OH! The first part of this comment really isn't supposed to come off as mean and rude and blunt and stuff. Ok, well it kind of was because I wanted you to scroll down and see the rest of it and be like OMG :'D
yeahh, idek, I feel like I'm on a sugar rush, lol
Okay, /crazy stalker reader slash mean rude commenter is leaving now (:
<3
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OMG OKAY SO THERE I WAS TYPING OUT THE RESPONSE TO YOUR COMMENT WHILE READING IT AND THEN I SCROLLED DOWN AND OMG!!!!!!!! YOUR COMMENT JUST LIKE MADE MY DAY!!
OMG I LOVE YOU TOO!!!! I WAS SO SAD CUZ I MADE YOU SAD BUT THEN THIS AND UEFJHDNREUDHKNFD OMG I JUST LOVE YOUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!
*happy dancing with you*
OMG affecting your life? Be happy. OMG *hugs* I love you so much!!!! Forget LJ service. I'm glad you went to sleep happy. And i am so happy for this comment. =)
And don't worry. I understood the scooby doo talk. =D And no you're not mean. And yayssssssss for sugar rush!!!!!!!! I hope you come back for the next chapter! OMG you made me so happy after the whole sad thing. i love you<33333333
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I'm glad he stopped too. HanMin hmmm...*wanders off to think*
Well, tomorrow. =) You can ask Chullie later. <3
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Oh Heechul, why didn't you just say that in the first place? -___- How did you think he was going to react? Moron. Bahaha, but now I can go back to being a proud petal, even though he's an idiot and I still feel like hitting him. I'm assuming he would've elaborated if Hannie hadn't walked off?
Sungmin's got a smart head on his shoulders. Awww *squishes him*
And I can understand why Hankyung would do that, but I'm obviously glad it didn't go very far. But I really don't blame him and I'm pleased that Sungmin is wise enough to help him think straight. I love their relationships with each other, not just Hankyung and Heechul or Hankyung and Sungmin, but the way all of them interact. It's kinda like a family... a slightly incestuous one but a family nonetheless xD
And of course, Heechul is just Heechul. I think he thinks everyone is able to follow his trail of thought, when really it makes no sense to a normal, rational person. He thinks it should have been obvious to Hankyung. But I really liked his insecurity in the way he was interacting with Geng. I think he's realised that maybe he went too far and could have screwed everything up. And it also shows that he does love him, even if he doesn't quite know how to show it. Hanchul lives! Though I'm sensing there'll be some trouble from Papa Kim later on .__.
*hugs for all the boys now* Siwon and Heechul are forgiven xD Hankyung is happy. So I'm happy too :D
And this comment is more of an essay, because I'm hyper.
Thank youuuuu :D
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lol proud petal =) Don't worry. We all feel like hitting out biases once in a while. He would have. He was going to, but Hannie left before he could.
lol your family comment made me laugh =D They are a slightly incestuous family. I guess that's why I didn't make any one blood related except for Donghae and Kyuhyun, but they have Eunhyuk and Sungmin.
Oh nos you sense trouble? *thinks quickly* Hanchul fluff in the next chapter!!!! I love you and thank you for the comment seriously. You made me very happy. I love you <333
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The future looks kind of bleak though :(
Hey but at least Heechul hasn't run off with someone!
FLUFF <3
And yes, heechul please kill him tomorrow with some rough schmex 8D
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So, no don't worry. Hanchul fluff in the next chapter and some fun =) and no Heechul didn't run off with someone else.
lol Heechul is planning something =) *innocent*
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actually i thought that he'll finished Sungmin.... and made things worse O[]o! (see how evil i am) ...
but it's good so that Hankyung wasn't that stupid..... if he did it.. i'll kill him myself *Satan Stare* ><
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i'll be freaking mad, if i were Kyuhyun ...
you need to pay him, Kyung!!
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And aws Hannie didn't mean to. He is so sorry. I promise.
Oh nooooooo *hides* Kyuhyunnie *hugs Kyuhyun* Baby i am so sorry. Must fix Kyumin!
*rushes to edit fic*
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...i wanna Hannie go meet Chullie's father and make Chullie's father realize that they are the ONE destined Couple v^^v yeay! v^^v
p/s: you are good in this chapter v^^v
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Thank you so much and i am so glad you liked the chapter.