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Book Store
Title: Book Store
Pairing: JongKey (broken eventually =/) ninja!TOFUHO (Onew/Minho)
Genre: angstI guess you can call what I have at the end a happy ending
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: SHINEE
Summary: It never occurred to Key that the one person who made him smile all the time would be the same one to make him cry.
Wordcount: 1,715
A/N: So this fic is for the![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
shawol_haven fic challenge. Their quote prompt was just too appealing and I HAD to do it. So, please read the fic and if you like it please vote for me. The voting doesn't start until later so you don't need to worry about it yet. I'll let you know =) So, that is all and yes it says angst. Doesn't it fit nicely into the Valentine's Day theme? =/
It never occurred to him that the person who made him smile and laugh all the time would be the same one to make him cry. It didn’t work like that and it was stupid that it was actually happening and Key was sick and tired of it. First Onew, with his stupid fail self that was just endearing in a way that should have made Key sick, and now Jonghyun with his stupid smile and his laughs and his hugs…stupid Jonghyun.
Jonghyun and his smile. Jonghyun and his hugs and kisses and stupid displays of affection. Jonghyun and the late night talks, the late night walks. Jonghyun and the jokes, the stupid faces that Key hated because they made something inside of him melt.
He’d been so happy.
***
Key looks down at the book in his hands. It’s something dumb like Jonghyun. He can’t even remember why he picked it up or why he would even have thought of picking it up because this is not the kind of stuff Key reads. But, since it’s in his hands and since he’s not feeling like Key today, he opens it.
"Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is."
“Stupid book.” Key says closing it. “What do you know about anything?”
He is aware that he is talking to himself and that people are going to start to look at the young man sitting in the book store getting angry at a book. What does it matter to him now though? How important can that be? Who cares how many people stop and stare because at one point in his life that would have mattered, but it doesn’t anymore.
It doesn’t matter. In any case he can just give them his Key look and they’ll go away. They always go away, just like Jonghyun.
The lump in his throat is proof enough to him that there is something wrong. When Key can’t bring himself to laugh about dumb things like people staring then there is something wrong. When the thought of Jonghyun, his supposed best friend, can’t make him scoff, then something is wrong. And something is wrong. Something is terribly wrong and that stupid book with its stupid quote isn’t helping things.
***
They’re in their dorm, their beds are unmade and Taemin is running around yelling about being late to school when Key comes in. He had been sleeping, but a rather loud thump pulled him out of bed.
“Yah!” he says when Onew and Minho almost run him over. “What are you two doing?”
“I’m trying to pin Onew hyung.” Minho answers as if that’s the most natural thing to do at 7 in the morning.
“And I’m making sure he doesn’t.” Onew says grabbing a hold of Minho’s waist and holding on as if his life depended on it.
From experience Key knows that it’s best to leave those two alone. Whatever bet they made with Jonghyun is best left a secret. If Key doesn’t know then he doesn’t need to fix it. Taemin, however, is another story. Taemin needs to be taken care of and since Key seems to be the only one not engaged in a supposed wrestling match, it is up to him.
“Taemin-ah, did you have breakfast yet?” Key calls as he heads for the kitchen.
“No hyung! I can’t find my back pack either.” Taemin answers as he flies by probably on his way to find his books.
“You left it on the couch.”
“Oh! Right!”
There is another flurry of dark blond hair as Taemin flashes past on his way to the couch. Key is in the kitchen making something quick and easy to carry because, unless Taemin gets out of the door in the next ten minutes, he’s going to be late.
Key has just about finished wrapping up Taemin’s breakfast and lunch when Jonghyun comes into the kitchen. He’s still in his pajamas and it doesn’t look like he plans on getting out of them any time soon. When he sees Key fully dressed, he raises an eyebrow.
“Who are you going to see today?” Jonghyun asks coming over but not touching him.
“No one important.” Key says.
Jonghyun pouts and there is something inside of Key that curses at him for saying what he did. It’s not that he’s upset because of Jonghyun’s reaction, it’s just the way those reactions make him feel. He’s never been one to act on impulse, always careful with what he did and never what he said. But, ever since Jonghyun came into his life, it’s been nothing but impulsive decisions.
They’ve been going out, if you can call it that, for about as long as they’ve been in Shinee, minus the time Key had his crush on Onew, and they’ve been keeping it a secret for just as long. Those touches on stage, those playful kisses, all of those, were just escapes, ways to tell the world what was going on without the danger of anyone really knowing. The members knew to some extent, to the same extent Key knew that there was something Minho and Onew weren’t telling them.
“Hey,” Jonghyun calls softly almost as if he were afraid to scare Key. “Are you happy?”
What a stupid question Key thinks. Of course he is happy.
“I’m not.” He says out loud. “I woke up because it sounded like someone was getting tortured, then Minho and Onew almost ran me over and on top of that you’re here bothering me when I should be getting Taemin’s lunch ready.”
There is no real anger in his answer although it sounds like that, but Jonghyun knows because Jonghyun just knows him like that.
“I’m sorry about Minho and Onew hyung. We made a bet that neither could pin me down, but of course to them that meant they had to see who was stronger out of the two of them.”
“It’s all an excuse.” Key says looking around for the spoons. “They just want to touch each other.”
“Like we do?” Jonghyun whispers his breath ghosting over Key’s ear.
Key freezes for a second, his heart too loud in his chest, but Taemin chooses that time to come flying into the kitchen again. He runs over, takes the food, kisses Key on the cheek and runs back from where he came. Key doesn’t know whether to laugh or stare.
“I love you umma.” Taemin calls as he flies past them again and out the door. “Thank you for the food.”
Jonghyun frowns. “Cheeky kid.”
Key smiles and makes sure that Onew and Minho are nowhere to be seen, but the two have now locked themselves in one of the rooms and there is no danger. He wraps his arms around Jonghyun’s waist and blinks at him.
“Jealous?” Key asks even though he knows the answer.
“Why would I be? He’s not the one that’s taking you to a hotel tonight when everyone’s asleep. And he most certainly isn’t the one that gets to celebrate his anniversary.”
“Are you happy?” Key asks because he wants Jonghyun to ask him again.
“Yes.” Jonghyun answers. “Are you?”
Key smiles. “Nope.”
But, he is.
***
He should have known there was something wrong. He should have been able to tell that the smile on Jonghyun’s face was sad not happy. He could have been able to tell so many things if he had just paid attention, like the fact that Jonghyun is never serious. But, he was happy. He was happy and blind.
That night, their last night, is all a blur. It comes to him even now in a haze of emotions and colors. He remembers pink from the sheets, black from Jonghyun’s shirt, white from his and all of it is covered in red. Red for the fire that ran through them, in them, over them, everywhere. Red for the marks he left on Jonghyun’s body. Red for the organ they both handed over or at least, that’s what Key thought then.
It’s funny now and then not really.
It’s funny because he was so stupid himself but he always said it was Jonghyun. Funny because he was snarky and mean and when Jonghyun was mean he broke. Funny because he was happy but rarely showed it and when he did Jonghyun dumped him.
It’s not funny because Key can feel the way his heart is breaking even now. He sees Jonghyun and her. He said he loved her, but he said the same thing about Key. He said it was crazy but he said the same thing about them. He said he was sorry but Key didn’t believe him.
“Happy Valentine’s Day, Jonghyun.” Key whispers, the book in his hands as heavy as the pain in his chest. “I hope you’re happy.”
There is no answer. Key didn’t expect one, not in this book store. He gets up and makes his way to the front of the book store for the door. He’s almost there when one of the cashiers calls him over.
“I’m sorry sir, are you buying that book?”
Key looks down at the book, the front cover hard, the pages clean, the cuts jagged like the ones in his heart.
"Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is."
When he looks up again the smile on his face is more like the old Key. “Why would I want this? I’m Shinee’s member the Almighty Key.”
The cashier gives him a look that could be mistaken for annoyance, but Key decides that the cashier’s just jealous because after all, who wouldn’t be jealous of Key? He takes the book back to where he found it, places it carefully among the others there and stares at it for a second.
Happiness. It is like sadness in some ways. You never really understand it, never really know why, but when it’s gone, when you have it no more, then you understand, always too late, but you understand.
“Happy Valentine’s Day, Jonghyun.” He whispers again and this time it really feels like goodbye.
A/N: I am starting to think that there's something wrong with me =/ How do I go from “Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is.” - Maxim Gorky to broken!JongKey ;_; Anyways, there is my fic and let me know what you think.
Pairing: JongKey (broken eventually =/) ninja!TOFUHO (Onew/Minho)
Genre: angst
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: SHINEE
Summary: It never occurred to Key that the one person who made him smile all the time would be the same one to make him cry.
Wordcount: 1,715
A/N: So this fic is for the
shawol_haven fic challenge. Their quote prompt was just too appealing and I HAD to do it. So, please read the fic and if you like it please vote for me. The voting doesn't start until later so you don't need to worry about it yet. I'll let you know =) So, that is all and yes it says angst. Doesn't it fit nicely into the Valentine's Day theme? =/It never occurred to him that the person who made him smile and laugh all the time would be the same one to make him cry. It didn’t work like that and it was stupid that it was actually happening and Key was sick and tired of it. First Onew, with his stupid fail self that was just endearing in a way that should have made Key sick, and now Jonghyun with his stupid smile and his laughs and his hugs…stupid Jonghyun.
Jonghyun and his smile. Jonghyun and his hugs and kisses and stupid displays of affection. Jonghyun and the late night talks, the late night walks. Jonghyun and the jokes, the stupid faces that Key hated because they made something inside of him melt.
He’d been so happy.
***
Key looks down at the book in his hands. It’s something dumb like Jonghyun. He can’t even remember why he picked it up or why he would even have thought of picking it up because this is not the kind of stuff Key reads. But, since it’s in his hands and since he’s not feeling like Key today, he opens it.
"Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is."
“Stupid book.” Key says closing it. “What do you know about anything?”
He is aware that he is talking to himself and that people are going to start to look at the young man sitting in the book store getting angry at a book. What does it matter to him now though? How important can that be? Who cares how many people stop and stare because at one point in his life that would have mattered, but it doesn’t anymore.
It doesn’t matter. In any case he can just give them his Key look and they’ll go away. They always go away, just like Jonghyun.
The lump in his throat is proof enough to him that there is something wrong. When Key can’t bring himself to laugh about dumb things like people staring then there is something wrong. When the thought of Jonghyun, his supposed best friend, can’t make him scoff, then something is wrong. And something is wrong. Something is terribly wrong and that stupid book with its stupid quote isn’t helping things.
***
They’re in their dorm, their beds are unmade and Taemin is running around yelling about being late to school when Key comes in. He had been sleeping, but a rather loud thump pulled him out of bed.
“Yah!” he says when Onew and Minho almost run him over. “What are you two doing?”
“I’m trying to pin Onew hyung.” Minho answers as if that’s the most natural thing to do at 7 in the morning.
“And I’m making sure he doesn’t.” Onew says grabbing a hold of Minho’s waist and holding on as if his life depended on it.
From experience Key knows that it’s best to leave those two alone. Whatever bet they made with Jonghyun is best left a secret. If Key doesn’t know then he doesn’t need to fix it. Taemin, however, is another story. Taemin needs to be taken care of and since Key seems to be the only one not engaged in a supposed wrestling match, it is up to him.
“Taemin-ah, did you have breakfast yet?” Key calls as he heads for the kitchen.
“No hyung! I can’t find my back pack either.” Taemin answers as he flies by probably on his way to find his books.
“You left it on the couch.”
“Oh! Right!”
There is another flurry of dark blond hair as Taemin flashes past on his way to the couch. Key is in the kitchen making something quick and easy to carry because, unless Taemin gets out of the door in the next ten minutes, he’s going to be late.
Key has just about finished wrapping up Taemin’s breakfast and lunch when Jonghyun comes into the kitchen. He’s still in his pajamas and it doesn’t look like he plans on getting out of them any time soon. When he sees Key fully dressed, he raises an eyebrow.
“Who are you going to see today?” Jonghyun asks coming over but not touching him.
“No one important.” Key says.
Jonghyun pouts and there is something inside of Key that curses at him for saying what he did. It’s not that he’s upset because of Jonghyun’s reaction, it’s just the way those reactions make him feel. He’s never been one to act on impulse, always careful with what he did and never what he said. But, ever since Jonghyun came into his life, it’s been nothing but impulsive decisions.
They’ve been going out, if you can call it that, for about as long as they’ve been in Shinee, minus the time Key had his crush on Onew, and they’ve been keeping it a secret for just as long. Those touches on stage, those playful kisses, all of those, were just escapes, ways to tell the world what was going on without the danger of anyone really knowing. The members knew to some extent, to the same extent Key knew that there was something Minho and Onew weren’t telling them.
“Hey,” Jonghyun calls softly almost as if he were afraid to scare Key. “Are you happy?”
What a stupid question Key thinks. Of course he is happy.
“I’m not.” He says out loud. “I woke up because it sounded like someone was getting tortured, then Minho and Onew almost ran me over and on top of that you’re here bothering me when I should be getting Taemin’s lunch ready.”
There is no real anger in his answer although it sounds like that, but Jonghyun knows because Jonghyun just knows him like that.
“I’m sorry about Minho and Onew hyung. We made a bet that neither could pin me down, but of course to them that meant they had to see who was stronger out of the two of them.”
“It’s all an excuse.” Key says looking around for the spoons. “They just want to touch each other.”
“Like we do?” Jonghyun whispers his breath ghosting over Key’s ear.
Key freezes for a second, his heart too loud in his chest, but Taemin chooses that time to come flying into the kitchen again. He runs over, takes the food, kisses Key on the cheek and runs back from where he came. Key doesn’t know whether to laugh or stare.
“I love you umma.” Taemin calls as he flies past them again and out the door. “Thank you for the food.”
Jonghyun frowns. “Cheeky kid.”
Key smiles and makes sure that Onew and Minho are nowhere to be seen, but the two have now locked themselves in one of the rooms and there is no danger. He wraps his arms around Jonghyun’s waist and blinks at him.
“Jealous?” Key asks even though he knows the answer.
“Why would I be? He’s not the one that’s taking you to a hotel tonight when everyone’s asleep. And he most certainly isn’t the one that gets to celebrate his anniversary.”
“Are you happy?” Key asks because he wants Jonghyun to ask him again.
“Yes.” Jonghyun answers. “Are you?”
Key smiles. “Nope.”
But, he is.
***
He should have known there was something wrong. He should have been able to tell that the smile on Jonghyun’s face was sad not happy. He could have been able to tell so many things if he had just paid attention, like the fact that Jonghyun is never serious. But, he was happy. He was happy and blind.
That night, their last night, is all a blur. It comes to him even now in a haze of emotions and colors. He remembers pink from the sheets, black from Jonghyun’s shirt, white from his and all of it is covered in red. Red for the fire that ran through them, in them, over them, everywhere. Red for the marks he left on Jonghyun’s body. Red for the organ they both handed over or at least, that’s what Key thought then.
It’s funny now and then not really.
It’s funny because he was so stupid himself but he always said it was Jonghyun. Funny because he was snarky and mean and when Jonghyun was mean he broke. Funny because he was happy but rarely showed it and when he did Jonghyun dumped him.
It’s not funny because Key can feel the way his heart is breaking even now. He sees Jonghyun and her. He said he loved her, but he said the same thing about Key. He said it was crazy but he said the same thing about them. He said he was sorry but Key didn’t believe him.
“Happy Valentine’s Day, Jonghyun.” Key whispers, the book in his hands as heavy as the pain in his chest. “I hope you’re happy.”
There is no answer. Key didn’t expect one, not in this book store. He gets up and makes his way to the front of the book store for the door. He’s almost there when one of the cashiers calls him over.
“I’m sorry sir, are you buying that book?”
Key looks down at the book, the front cover hard, the pages clean, the cuts jagged like the ones in his heart.
"Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is."
When he looks up again the smile on his face is more like the old Key. “Why would I want this? I’m Shinee’s member the Almighty Key.”
The cashier gives him a look that could be mistaken for annoyance, but Key decides that the cashier’s just jealous because after all, who wouldn’t be jealous of Key? He takes the book back to where he found it, places it carefully among the others there and stares at it for a second.
Happiness. It is like sadness in some ways. You never really understand it, never really know why, but when it’s gone, when you have it no more, then you understand, always too late, but you understand.
“Happy Valentine’s Day, Jonghyun.” He whispers again and this time it really feels like goodbye.
A/N: I am starting to think that there's something wrong with me =/ How do I go from “Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is.” - Maxim Gorky to broken!JongKey ;_; Anyways, there is my fic and let me know what you think.
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GAH. This was so cute.
And then it made me so sad D:
*hugs and squishes Key*
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Thank you. I made Key sad =/ But, how was I NOT going to!? That quote! It was just yelling ANGST at me! =/
*hugs you and Key*
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There really is just something about him that makes Angsty!Key so natural and seem so right.
*group hug!* :D
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And it's so sad because Key was alway so squishable and he made me laugh. I love Key and he's just perfect for angst
*flops*
This is not good. I hope I'm not going to go into another angst spiral. Or it could be good...=/
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first of all, ninja!TofuHo was awesome!!
second, dawww i love umma!Key and
daughterson!Taeminpoor, poor broken JongKey though =(
i really like:
That night, their last night, is all a blur. It comes to him even now in a haze of emotions and colors. He remembers pink from the sheets, black from Jonghyun’s shirt, white from his and all of it is covered in red. Red for the fire that ran through them, in them, over them, everywhere. Red for the marks he left on Jonghyun’s body. Red for the organ they both handed over or at least, that’s what Key thought then.
YOUR DESCRIPTIONS ARE JUST SO AMAZING!! *flails*
i will vote for you once voting starts!!!!!
umma!!! you need to write fluffy/hot HanChul or something because sadness and Valentine's day aren't supposed to go together~!!!no subject
Thank you =) umma!Key is <3 and ahahaahahahaaa oh boy wait 'till I tell Taemin what you called him........oh wait....I don't know Taemin =\
*hugs you and Key*
*goes to get tape*
How much do you think I need to put back together the broken!JongKey?
and awww *hugs my sweet daughter*
Thank you <33333333333333333
O:
But, angst is perfect for valentine's day!!!
But I get what you mean. Except I have no inspiration *flops* Prompt? =)
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nuuu don't tell Taeminnie~! XD
two, no, THREE rolls of super adhesive tape!
*glomp*
lol angst is good!
umm, umm, umm... if we're talking fluff, then:
"I know he loves me because..."
and then like talk about all the subtle and/or not-so-subtle ways of showing it *coughfanserviceandhandholdingandmorefanservicecough*
and then BAM!SMUTSCENE!!! XDDDD
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I am working on this fic and it's killing me. I have a quick question for you. Actually can I bounce some ideas off you? Do you have msn? I have this idea for a fic and I can't figure it out ;_;
Help?
XD I want to do the Hanchul...problem is now I have this other fic in my head and I need to write this first =\ otherwise I won't be able to sleep or think or breathe /=
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and oh i know exactly what you mean! last night i woke up at two am because i had a billion ideas for my story and i just needed to write them all down!!
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okay! Do you have time? It's sort of a long rant =/
well I'll tell you about it in the email.
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I remember my SATs =/ I don't know how we waited so long for our scores. Everyone was dying to know as soon as the test was over.
And everyone wanted to get higher than everyone else in my school (or well not everyone but most people I knew)
\0/ I am up hopefully until 2 or 3 because i have a really late class tomorrow and I don't need sleep XD
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dude i've been dying to know since i finished them on the 22nd of January!! a little more than half an hour left...the suspense is killing me! i need a high score for college. my parents are already paying for my two older sisters' college tuition!
who needs sleep?! not me!! bwahaha!!! XD
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You'll do well. You'll do well. You'll do well.
*sends you all the good luck I have stored away*
shjdflkjaflkjhsjfhshfksdjhflkjhsdkjfhasdkj 20 minutes XD
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jadkfgjknafdnjgdn;ladnlkgal'djilf gahhhhh suspense!!!!!!!!!!
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I wish I had a JongKey icon but my darn HanGeng bias won't let me =/
Oh well 8D
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*hugs you*
I am sorry OTL The prompt asked for an angsty key
*flops* I couldn't help myself.
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How. Come?
It''s great that Key got over it, or at least accepted it really well. But at the same time, I LIKE ANGST SO IT'S SAD HE ALREADY SAID GOODBYE.
!_!
lol, i'm weird.
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I DON'T KNOW!! D:
I don't know why jjong left Key. OTL
It just seemed appropriate for the quote they gave us =/
In my head Key had been suffering for months before he went to the book store so i thought it was about time he moved on. But, that's just me =/
You're not weird at all <3
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hahaha ever since i read your first jongkey fic.. i joined the community and started to browse through there......
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<3333333333333333333
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HOLY SHIT.
Broken!JongKey?! Seriously?
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!?!?!? T__________________________________________________T
HOW CAN YOU CALL THEM BROKEN?!?
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*flops*
It just fit the quote and it made me want to write some angst and I know and I wanted to make it even sadder you know with Jonghyun and him still having to do fan service even though they were broken up but...it's JONGKEY and I couldn't.
But, doesn't it fit the Valentine's day theme nicely =/
But that aside
*hugs you* <33333333333333333333333333333
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JONGHYUUUUUUUUN~ 8D
KEY AND JONGHYUN SITTING ON A TREE~ K-I-S-S-I-N-G 8DDDD
"Jonghyun pouts and there is something inside of Key that curses at him for saying what he did."
SOMEBODY IS JEALOUSSSSS~
"I should be getting Taemin’s lunch ready."
SO DOMESTIC :D
KEY CANNOT RESIST HAPPY.
"Funny because he was happy but rarely showed it and when he did Jonghyun dumped him."
DDD:
JONGHYUN'S GIRLFRIEND! THE GIRLFRIEND. I... uh, don't know her name. But she's pretty. Not as pretty as Key, though.
STUPID STUPID JONGHYUN THERE IS ALMIGHTY KEY CAN'T YOU EVEN SEE
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domestic key makes me smile and Taemin needs to be a spoiled. And so I decided that yes it is Key's job to spoil Taemin. And no who can resist happy especially when it's JongKey?
I know. I broke them. I'll go fix them/ *goes to get tape and glue and other such sticky material*
Nope Jonghyun's blind but it was for a contest for Valentine's day and I went and killed it by making this sad =\
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yeah, I know. I mean if Jonghyun is happy then he's happy and that's pretty much it. We never really heard too much about them ever =\
But, anyway I love jongkey, cept this just seemed right to me with the quote and everything. I'm glad you liked it ^^
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I like how you portrayed Key's emotions in this story. Very well done :)
Thank you for writing! Good luck on the challenge~ <3
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OTL i fail.
But thanks again and I am glad you liked it.
thanks for the comment <3
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But then the end I was like ............ ;~; Poor Key. Damn you Jonghyun! I shall hunt you down~!
But still, I am happy because of the ninja!OnHo. :))
LOVE THIS!♥
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sdkjfhaslkj ONHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO /spazzes
I love them together and want to squish them and just DDDD:
I am glad you liked it.
thanks so much for the comment <3