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Like Velvet Chapter 10
Title: Like Velvet
Pairing: Sihan, side pairings: ZhouChul and Shindong/JinSook, also kid!Henry, Hanchul (friendship), Kyuhan (only a bit), mentions of Kibum
Genre: drama, romance, angst, (stripper!Geng) AU
Rating: R (for mature content and themes)
Summary: Hankyung knew no life other than that club where he had to do what he was told, bend over for whoever wanted it, do whatever his clients paid him to do and then one day he meets Siwon and he thinks he'll finally get out. But, Siwon never comes back even though he promised and Hankyung is left alone. Five years later he's out thanks to Heechul and then Siwon comes back..
Note: For![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
shihan_ai and daidetre because I refuse to let her live her life in fear of Sihan.
[Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4] [Chapter 5A] [Chapter 5B] [Chapter 6] [Chapter 7] [Chapter 8] [Chapter 9] [Chapter 10] [Epilogue]
A/N: So here it is. And I lied OTL I lied because there is going to be an epilogue because when I was writing this chapter I kept thinking about how there was something more I needed to put in but it never got there because I couldn't bring myself to end it any other way. I am completely hopeless and hksaj I miss the Hanchul ;_; I am going to go write the next chapter for that other fic because Annie said she can't write hanchul and that means it's up to me because that's how we work. What she doesn't do I do. *cough* Sihan *cough* I hope you get grounded Annie. =) I love you <3
Day One.
Siwon packed his things early. He had two more days before he had to get on that plane. Two more days and the past few days hadn’t been easy.
Sooyoung was gone. No one knew where she was, but Siwon suspected. He knew that there was more between her and that American that wouldn’t leave her alone. Her mother had gotten a phone call two days earlier. It was SooYoung calling to inform that she wasn’t coming back.
Of course, Siwon had been blamed because he was her fiancé or was supposed to be. He had to watch her and take care of her and love her and he hadn’t done his job right. That’s what SooYoung’s mother had told him. Never mind that they had cancelled their engagement months ago. On top of it all, he couldn’t even talk to Hankyung.
He couldn’t talk to Hankyung because Hankyung still didn’t have a phone. It made Siwon wish he was there. He couldn’t stand not knowing. He couldn’t stand being blind. He got no letters in return because Hankyung hadn’t written back. He hadn’t written to him in almost a month. He’d had trouble even sending the last letter saying that he’d be back.
If Hankyung wasn’t writing then that meant he didn’t want to hear from Siwon. But, Siwon had sent it anyway because he wanted to know. He wanted to know what Hankyung thought. He wanted Hankyung to know that he was going back. He wanted Hankyung to know that he still cared.
He was afraid now. He was afraid because there had been no answer, no response, not even a hint that Hankyung had gotten the letter. Siwon knew there was a reason. There had to be a reason. He just hoped that the reason had something to do with mail problems and not with Hankyung having found someone else.
Unbidden, images of Hankyung and Kyuhyun came to him. Hankyung wrote a lot about Kyuhyun. Hankyung talked too much about Kyuhyun in those letters. He tried to tell himself that he was crazy, that he had nothing to worry about. Kyuhyun was with Sungmin. Hankyung had made that clear. Kyuhyun and Sungmin, not Kyuhyun and Hankyung.
Kyuhyun loved Sungmin.
Kyuhyun loved Sungmin.
Kyuhyun and Sungmin.
It had to be Kyuhyun and Sungmin. It had to be.
Day Two.
Hankyung was eating breakfast with Heechul. Henry was sleeping and Zhou Mi was working.
One more day.
It hung heavy between them. They both knew that Hankyung had stopped writing. They both knew that Hankyung was waiting. They both knew that that last letter was what had set Hankyung off.
“Are you sure?” Heechul asked.
“I’m sure Heechul-ah.” Hankyung answered.
“But, you love him.”
Hankyung nodded. “I know what I have to do. If I am going to see him it is because I love him, but I need to know.”
Heechul frowned and looked down at his plate. “I wouldn’t want Siwon or anyone thinking bad about you.”
“You know I had to do it.” Hankyung sighed. “He wrote like it was nothing. He was coming back. After he left. He was coming back. It wasn’t once. It was twice and I need to know.”
“Don’t beg.” Heechul said. “Whatever he says, whatever he threatens, you are worth more than that. Whatever he says, you don’t need him. You don’t need him even if…”
“Even if I do?”
Day Three.
Siwon was at the airport and so where the reporters.
“Mr. Choi, there have been many speculations in reference to what has happened these past months. Is there anything you’d like to say on the matter?”
“Mr. Choi, have you heard from your mother?”
“What do you have to say about your father and Kim Kibum’s father?”
“I heard that you two were close friends. Is that still true after what happened?”
Siwon was tired. He was tired and he wanted to go see Hankyung. He had no time for reporters who didn’t even care that his father was happy, who didn’t care that he and Kibum were too good of friends to ever let something that had nothing to do with them get in the way of their friendship. He just didn’t have time for reporters who didn’t even care that he hadn’t heard from his mother in so long, who only cared about the story they wanted to write. Put plain and simple, he didn’t like reporters.
He ignored them and walked out. They followed him to his car, kept shooting question after question as he was helped with his luggage by the airport staff. They followed even as he started driving, but he didn’t have time. He had to get to Hankyung.
***
Hankyung was dressed early that morning. He knew Siwon was coming. He knew because there it was plastered all over the papers and on the news. He knew and he knew that Siwon would come looking for him here, so he had to be ready.
Heechul and Henry were up soon after.
“Gege! Where are you going?” Henry asked sticking himself to Hankyung’s leg.
Hankyung reached down to pat Henry’s head. “I’m not going anywhere. I have to work later, but I’ll be back.”
“Okay, but you have to promise to come and pick me up with Heechul appa and Zhou Mi papa.”
“I will, but you shouldn’t call Heechul appa.”
“And why not?” Heechul asked coming from the kitchen.
“Because, what kind of crazy person would ever make you an appa?” Hankyung answered picking Henry up.
“Shut up and get into that kitchen and cook me breakfast.” Heechul said walking over and taking Henry. “And give me my kid.”
Hankyung walked into the kitchen laughing. He had barely made it inside when he heard Heechul laugh. It took him a few minutes to cook breakfast and send Henry and Heechul off. He was at the door and Henry was running for the elevator.
“You wait there for a second Henry.” Heechul said before turning to Hankyung. “Are you sure?”
Hankyung nodded.
“Okay then. You have until it’s time to pick up Henry. He wants you to pick him up and you’re going to go pick him up.”
“I know.” Hankyung said. “I know. Don’t worry. I can take care of myself.”
Heechul looked at him, dark eyes burning into his own. “I know you can.”
***
Siwon was running, running up the stair to his house, the house his mother had left him when she disappeared, the house that was now his. He ran up to his room and stripped. He was in a hurry. He jumped into the shower and only then did he slow down and take his time.
He made sure that he was clean thoroughly before he got out and half emptied his closet in his mad search to find something to wear. He settled on jeans and a white shirt. There was nothing more he could do and he didn’t want to seem overdressed.
He put everything back inside his closet and rearranged his pillows. He unpacked his suitcase and then he realized that he was wasting time. He was doing it on purpose too because he was nervous. He was going to see Hankyung.
It took him a second, literally just one, to get downstairs to his car because he was running so fast. He jumped in and drove, not caring that he was probably breaking all of the rules of the road, not caring that he could be stopped.
He just had one thought in his head: Get to Hankyung.
He went straight for Heechul’s apartment and ran in. He was running up the stairs when he remembered that he didn’t have anything. He had come empty handed. It slowed him down, but he had to get to Hankyung.
He had to.
He ran up the last few steps already forming apologies in his head, promising to the Hankyung in his head that he would make it up to him, that he’d take him out to dinner, that he’s bring him home and make love to him all night, slow, loving. He’d have Hankyung in his arms again. He would have him and he was never going to let go. He was done running, done denying it.
Forget the reporters.
Forget what everyone would say.
Forget everything but Hankyung.
Hankyung who was in Kyuhyun’s arms.
Siwon stopped. He had turned the corner and there were Kyuhyun and Hankyung. Kyuhyun had his arms around Hankyung, was murmuring something in Hankyung’s ear. Siwon watched as Hankyung rested his head on Kyuhyun’s shoulder.
That was supposed to be him. He knew it was supposed to be him because he was the one, the only one who Hankyung should need. He was the only one who Hankyung should want. Friendship or not…oh who was he kidding? He and Kyuhyun weren’t friends. Kyuhyun was Sungmin’s interest, not Siwon’s.
He didn’t feel guilty as he went over and pulled Hankyung away from Kyuhyun. He ignored the protests from Kyuhyun, ignored the gasp of shock from Hankyung. All he knew was that he was dragging Hankyung back into the apartment and slamming the door in Kyuhyun’s face.
“What was that?” Hankyung asked.
”What were you doing with Kyuhyun?” Siwon asked instead.
His anger was unfounded he knew, but who cared about what made sense anymore. He was angry and he had every right to be angry. He had decided that he was the one who was hurt here. He was the one that Hankyung wrote to, he was the one that Hankyung said he loved in every letter. Never mind that he had abandoned Hankyung twice, never mind that he was wrong too. Rationality seemed to abandon him when he was with Hankyung
“What were you doing with Kyuhyun?” Siwon asked again when Hankyung just looked at him.
“Why is that any of your business?” Hankyung answered
Siwon looked into those brown eyes, brown eyes that seemed so angry, so full of a rage Siwon had never seen before, brown eyes that screamed at him, that accused him.
“You’re not Heechul.” Siwon said taking Hankyung’s face in his hands. “You’re not Heechul.”
Hankyung pulled away. “How would you know? You haven’t been around enough to know what I’m like.”
Siwon took a step back. The force of the words were too much for him. Hankyung was right. He didn’t know him. He only knew what Hankyung had written to him in those letters, those letters that he had in his dresser at home. He only knew what he had seen, what he had heard from Hankyung, from those around him. He knew only what Hankyung had wanted him to know, but that didn’t mean he knew everything.
This was the perfect example. Those eyes, those eyes so full of anger. He had never known that Hankyung could be angry.
“Hankyung…I…”
“You what Siwon?”
“You know why I left.”
Hankyung shook his head. “No one is blaming you for leaving the first time. No one is blaming you for something you didn’t even have full control over. I am not blaming you for that because I know it was your mother and father. I want to know why you came back if you knew that you weren’t going to be able to do anything about this, about us.”
Siwon blinked. “But, why wouldn’t I be able to do anything about us? I’m here because I want to be with you, because I love you, because all those years that I didn’t have you I was dreaming about you, loving you in my heart, even when I tried to push you away, you were there. I love you.”
“You married SooYoung. You can’t possibly love me that much.”
Siwon shook his head. “SooYoung? Who said I married SooYoung?”
“Your mother announced it to the reporters.” Hankyung said shrugging. “Does it even matter who announced it? You married her and I am not here for you to come to when you need a break from your wife. I left that life behind me Siwon and I don’t plan to lie down for you or for anyone ever again.”
Siwon watched Hankyung. He looked at the red face in front of him, at the eyes that were so angry. He was supposed to be clearing things up, but he couldn’t. He couldn’t because he suddenly realized that there was Hankyung, real and alive and that he hadn’t seen him in over six months and that all it would take to feel those lips on his was move a few steps.
“I…” Siwon said trying to form some sort of sentence. “SooYoung and I…”
“You and SooYoung are happily married and you are going to go back to her.”
Siwon shook his head. He reached forward to hold Hankyung’s arm. “Listen to me. I love you.”
He didn’t get much in after that because Hankyung took a swing at him. Siwon was so surprised that he didn’t react at first. He blinked and let his hands drop to his sides.
“I’m not married to SooYoung.” He said.
He watched the utter shock on Hankyung’s face, the disbelief, the way the anger slipped from his face, the way those eyes got so big.
“You’re not?” Hankyung asked.
“I’m not.”
“You big…you…” Hankyung tried for words and failed.
And Siwon was tried. He reached forward and silenced Hankyung with a kiss, a kiss that burned him and made his body trembles, a kiss that was hard and rough and almost angry on Hankyung’s part.
Finally, his body screamed at him. Finally. Finally after all that time he was kissing Hankyung and it didn’t even matter that Hankyung’s hands in his hair were pulling or that Hankyung was biting on his lip or that it was all about want and need and desperate want. None of it mattered because he was with Hankyung and it was Hankyung and whatever happened next didn’t matter because it was Hankyung.
It had always been Hankyung.
They fell against each other, lips pressed together hard enough to bruise. Siwon gave himself over. He let go of the restrain he had built over the years. He let himself go and kissed back, kissed Hankyung, fought him for dominance and Hankyung gave himself over. It was beautiful the way Hankyung said yes with his body, with his hands and legs and kisses.
They ended up in Hankyung’s bed. Everything was softer as Siwon pulled away to look at Hankyung lying in bed. Siwon swore there was nothing more beautiful than that man looking at him, watching him, telling him with those eyes that he was wanted, that he, Siwon, was loved.
He leaned down and trailed kisses down Hankyung’s face, down his jaw, down his neck. Siwon let his hands pull off that shirt, push down the pants. He heard the sigh into his ear as he wrapped his hand around Hankyung.
So long.
Much too long.
It burned, the kisses, the touches, the feel of skin on skin, so different from the quick job in the bathroom, so much better, so much nicer, so much more complete. It drove Siwon insane, the way Hankyung grabbed onto his shoulders, the way those legs wrapped around his waist. He couldn’t think, much less breath.
It was all about moving together, listening to the rapid increase in both their breathing. It was about the way Hankyung whispered in his ear, the way he whispered the same words back, the way they climbed higher and higher. It was about feeling and loving and being together.
Siwon didn’t understand. He didn’t know how he was able to control himself, how he was able to take this slow, to make this matter, to make this mean everything. He didn’t understand how the sudden desperate desire had turned into this.
He didn’t know until he and Hankyung were both yelling and reaching for each other, some place to hold onto. Their hands found each other and when Siwon looked into Hankyung’s eyes he understood.
He was in love with this man, had always been in love with this man, would probably always be in love with this man.
And the best part was that Hankyung loved him too.
A/N: So there we go and I hope everyone liked it and that you all come back for the epilogue and the side stories. I am going to try to get the epilogue up before the end of this week, but classes start tomorrow so I am going to be sort of kind of busy but probably not really until next week. Either way, I love you all and wait for me I will be back! =) I'm going to change the posting I do, less frequent I am afraid =/ But I love you all and I promise some more Shihan in the future. This sounds like I'm saying goodbye XD I still have the epilogue and the side stories! And just for those who are curious, I have a hanhae/eunhae, a qmi/zhouchul, kangteuk/yeteuk, and I already posted the Kyumin =)
Pairing: Sihan, side pairings: ZhouChul and Shindong/JinSook, also kid!Henry, Hanchul (friendship), Kyuhan (only a bit), mentions of Kibum
Genre: drama, romance, angst, (stripper!Geng) AU
Rating: R (for mature content and themes)
Summary: Hankyung knew no life other than that club where he had to do what he was told, bend over for whoever wanted it, do whatever his clients paid him to do and then one day he meets Siwon and he thinks he'll finally get out. But, Siwon never comes back even though he promised and Hankyung is left alone. Five years later he's out thanks to Heechul and then Siwon comes back..
Note: For
shihan_ai and daidetre because I refuse to let her live her life in fear of Sihan. [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4] [Chapter 5A] [Chapter 5B] [Chapter 6] [Chapter 7] [Chapter 8] [Chapter 9] [Chapter 10] [Epilogue]
A/N: So here it is. And I lied OTL I lied because there is going to be an epilogue because when I was writing this chapter I kept thinking about how there was something more I needed to put in but it never got there because I couldn't bring myself to end it any other way. I am completely hopeless and hksaj I miss the Hanchul ;_; I am going to go write the next chapter for that other fic because Annie said she can't write hanchul and that means it's up to me because that's how we work. What she doesn't do I do. *cough* Sihan *cough* I hope you get grounded Annie. =) I love you <3
Day One.
Siwon packed his things early. He had two more days before he had to get on that plane. Two more days and the past few days hadn’t been easy.
Sooyoung was gone. No one knew where she was, but Siwon suspected. He knew that there was more between her and that American that wouldn’t leave her alone. Her mother had gotten a phone call two days earlier. It was SooYoung calling to inform that she wasn’t coming back.
Of course, Siwon had been blamed because he was her fiancé or was supposed to be. He had to watch her and take care of her and love her and he hadn’t done his job right. That’s what SooYoung’s mother had told him. Never mind that they had cancelled their engagement months ago. On top of it all, he couldn’t even talk to Hankyung.
He couldn’t talk to Hankyung because Hankyung still didn’t have a phone. It made Siwon wish he was there. He couldn’t stand not knowing. He couldn’t stand being blind. He got no letters in return because Hankyung hadn’t written back. He hadn’t written to him in almost a month. He’d had trouble even sending the last letter saying that he’d be back.
If Hankyung wasn’t writing then that meant he didn’t want to hear from Siwon. But, Siwon had sent it anyway because he wanted to know. He wanted to know what Hankyung thought. He wanted Hankyung to know that he was going back. He wanted Hankyung to know that he still cared.
He was afraid now. He was afraid because there had been no answer, no response, not even a hint that Hankyung had gotten the letter. Siwon knew there was a reason. There had to be a reason. He just hoped that the reason had something to do with mail problems and not with Hankyung having found someone else.
Unbidden, images of Hankyung and Kyuhyun came to him. Hankyung wrote a lot about Kyuhyun. Hankyung talked too much about Kyuhyun in those letters. He tried to tell himself that he was crazy, that he had nothing to worry about. Kyuhyun was with Sungmin. Hankyung had made that clear. Kyuhyun and Sungmin, not Kyuhyun and Hankyung.
Kyuhyun loved Sungmin.
Kyuhyun loved Sungmin.
Kyuhyun and Sungmin.
It had to be Kyuhyun and Sungmin. It had to be.
Day Two.
Hankyung was eating breakfast with Heechul. Henry was sleeping and Zhou Mi was working.
One more day.
It hung heavy between them. They both knew that Hankyung had stopped writing. They both knew that Hankyung was waiting. They both knew that that last letter was what had set Hankyung off.
“Are you sure?” Heechul asked.
“I’m sure Heechul-ah.” Hankyung answered.
“But, you love him.”
Hankyung nodded. “I know what I have to do. If I am going to see him it is because I love him, but I need to know.”
Heechul frowned and looked down at his plate. “I wouldn’t want Siwon or anyone thinking bad about you.”
“You know I had to do it.” Hankyung sighed. “He wrote like it was nothing. He was coming back. After he left. He was coming back. It wasn’t once. It was twice and I need to know.”
“Don’t beg.” Heechul said. “Whatever he says, whatever he threatens, you are worth more than that. Whatever he says, you don’t need him. You don’t need him even if…”
“Even if I do?”
Day Three.
Siwon was at the airport and so where the reporters.
“Mr. Choi, there have been many speculations in reference to what has happened these past months. Is there anything you’d like to say on the matter?”
“Mr. Choi, have you heard from your mother?”
“What do you have to say about your father and Kim Kibum’s father?”
“I heard that you two were close friends. Is that still true after what happened?”
Siwon was tired. He was tired and he wanted to go see Hankyung. He had no time for reporters who didn’t even care that his father was happy, who didn’t care that he and Kibum were too good of friends to ever let something that had nothing to do with them get in the way of their friendship. He just didn’t have time for reporters who didn’t even care that he hadn’t heard from his mother in so long, who only cared about the story they wanted to write. Put plain and simple, he didn’t like reporters.
He ignored them and walked out. They followed him to his car, kept shooting question after question as he was helped with his luggage by the airport staff. They followed even as he started driving, but he didn’t have time. He had to get to Hankyung.
***
Hankyung was dressed early that morning. He knew Siwon was coming. He knew because there it was plastered all over the papers and on the news. He knew and he knew that Siwon would come looking for him here, so he had to be ready.
Heechul and Henry were up soon after.
“Gege! Where are you going?” Henry asked sticking himself to Hankyung’s leg.
Hankyung reached down to pat Henry’s head. “I’m not going anywhere. I have to work later, but I’ll be back.”
“Okay, but you have to promise to come and pick me up with Heechul appa and Zhou Mi papa.”
“I will, but you shouldn’t call Heechul appa.”
“And why not?” Heechul asked coming from the kitchen.
“Because, what kind of crazy person would ever make you an appa?” Hankyung answered picking Henry up.
“Shut up and get into that kitchen and cook me breakfast.” Heechul said walking over and taking Henry. “And give me my kid.”
Hankyung walked into the kitchen laughing. He had barely made it inside when he heard Heechul laugh. It took him a few minutes to cook breakfast and send Henry and Heechul off. He was at the door and Henry was running for the elevator.
“You wait there for a second Henry.” Heechul said before turning to Hankyung. “Are you sure?”
Hankyung nodded.
“Okay then. You have until it’s time to pick up Henry. He wants you to pick him up and you’re going to go pick him up.”
“I know.” Hankyung said. “I know. Don’t worry. I can take care of myself.”
Heechul looked at him, dark eyes burning into his own. “I know you can.”
***
Siwon was running, running up the stair to his house, the house his mother had left him when she disappeared, the house that was now his. He ran up to his room and stripped. He was in a hurry. He jumped into the shower and only then did he slow down and take his time.
He made sure that he was clean thoroughly before he got out and half emptied his closet in his mad search to find something to wear. He settled on jeans and a white shirt. There was nothing more he could do and he didn’t want to seem overdressed.
He put everything back inside his closet and rearranged his pillows. He unpacked his suitcase and then he realized that he was wasting time. He was doing it on purpose too because he was nervous. He was going to see Hankyung.
It took him a second, literally just one, to get downstairs to his car because he was running so fast. He jumped in and drove, not caring that he was probably breaking all of the rules of the road, not caring that he could be stopped.
He just had one thought in his head: Get to Hankyung.
He went straight for Heechul’s apartment and ran in. He was running up the stairs when he remembered that he didn’t have anything. He had come empty handed. It slowed him down, but he had to get to Hankyung.
He had to.
He ran up the last few steps already forming apologies in his head, promising to the Hankyung in his head that he would make it up to him, that he’d take him out to dinner, that he’s bring him home and make love to him all night, slow, loving. He’d have Hankyung in his arms again. He would have him and he was never going to let go. He was done running, done denying it.
Forget the reporters.
Forget what everyone would say.
Forget everything but Hankyung.
Hankyung who was in Kyuhyun’s arms.
Siwon stopped. He had turned the corner and there were Kyuhyun and Hankyung. Kyuhyun had his arms around Hankyung, was murmuring something in Hankyung’s ear. Siwon watched as Hankyung rested his head on Kyuhyun’s shoulder.
That was supposed to be him. He knew it was supposed to be him because he was the one, the only one who Hankyung should need. He was the only one who Hankyung should want. Friendship or not…oh who was he kidding? He and Kyuhyun weren’t friends. Kyuhyun was Sungmin’s interest, not Siwon’s.
He didn’t feel guilty as he went over and pulled Hankyung away from Kyuhyun. He ignored the protests from Kyuhyun, ignored the gasp of shock from Hankyung. All he knew was that he was dragging Hankyung back into the apartment and slamming the door in Kyuhyun’s face.
“What was that?” Hankyung asked.
”What were you doing with Kyuhyun?” Siwon asked instead.
His anger was unfounded he knew, but who cared about what made sense anymore. He was angry and he had every right to be angry. He had decided that he was the one who was hurt here. He was the one that Hankyung wrote to, he was the one that Hankyung said he loved in every letter. Never mind that he had abandoned Hankyung twice, never mind that he was wrong too. Rationality seemed to abandon him when he was with Hankyung
“What were you doing with Kyuhyun?” Siwon asked again when Hankyung just looked at him.
“Why is that any of your business?” Hankyung answered
Siwon looked into those brown eyes, brown eyes that seemed so angry, so full of a rage Siwon had never seen before, brown eyes that screamed at him, that accused him.
“You’re not Heechul.” Siwon said taking Hankyung’s face in his hands. “You’re not Heechul.”
Hankyung pulled away. “How would you know? You haven’t been around enough to know what I’m like.”
Siwon took a step back. The force of the words were too much for him. Hankyung was right. He didn’t know him. He only knew what Hankyung had written to him in those letters, those letters that he had in his dresser at home. He only knew what he had seen, what he had heard from Hankyung, from those around him. He knew only what Hankyung had wanted him to know, but that didn’t mean he knew everything.
This was the perfect example. Those eyes, those eyes so full of anger. He had never known that Hankyung could be angry.
“Hankyung…I…”
“You what Siwon?”
“You know why I left.”
Hankyung shook his head. “No one is blaming you for leaving the first time. No one is blaming you for something you didn’t even have full control over. I am not blaming you for that because I know it was your mother and father. I want to know why you came back if you knew that you weren’t going to be able to do anything about this, about us.”
Siwon blinked. “But, why wouldn’t I be able to do anything about us? I’m here because I want to be with you, because I love you, because all those years that I didn’t have you I was dreaming about you, loving you in my heart, even when I tried to push you away, you were there. I love you.”
“You married SooYoung. You can’t possibly love me that much.”
Siwon shook his head. “SooYoung? Who said I married SooYoung?”
“Your mother announced it to the reporters.” Hankyung said shrugging. “Does it even matter who announced it? You married her and I am not here for you to come to when you need a break from your wife. I left that life behind me Siwon and I don’t plan to lie down for you or for anyone ever again.”
Siwon watched Hankyung. He looked at the red face in front of him, at the eyes that were so angry. He was supposed to be clearing things up, but he couldn’t. He couldn’t because he suddenly realized that there was Hankyung, real and alive and that he hadn’t seen him in over six months and that all it would take to feel those lips on his was move a few steps.
“I…” Siwon said trying to form some sort of sentence. “SooYoung and I…”
“You and SooYoung are happily married and you are going to go back to her.”
Siwon shook his head. He reached forward to hold Hankyung’s arm. “Listen to me. I love you.”
He didn’t get much in after that because Hankyung took a swing at him. Siwon was so surprised that he didn’t react at first. He blinked and let his hands drop to his sides.
“I’m not married to SooYoung.” He said.
He watched the utter shock on Hankyung’s face, the disbelief, the way the anger slipped from his face, the way those eyes got so big.
“You’re not?” Hankyung asked.
“I’m not.”
“You big…you…” Hankyung tried for words and failed.
And Siwon was tried. He reached forward and silenced Hankyung with a kiss, a kiss that burned him and made his body trembles, a kiss that was hard and rough and almost angry on Hankyung’s part.
Finally, his body screamed at him. Finally. Finally after all that time he was kissing Hankyung and it didn’t even matter that Hankyung’s hands in his hair were pulling or that Hankyung was biting on his lip or that it was all about want and need and desperate want. None of it mattered because he was with Hankyung and it was Hankyung and whatever happened next didn’t matter because it was Hankyung.
It had always been Hankyung.
They fell against each other, lips pressed together hard enough to bruise. Siwon gave himself over. He let go of the restrain he had built over the years. He let himself go and kissed back, kissed Hankyung, fought him for dominance and Hankyung gave himself over. It was beautiful the way Hankyung said yes with his body, with his hands and legs and kisses.
They ended up in Hankyung’s bed. Everything was softer as Siwon pulled away to look at Hankyung lying in bed. Siwon swore there was nothing more beautiful than that man looking at him, watching him, telling him with those eyes that he was wanted, that he, Siwon, was loved.
He leaned down and trailed kisses down Hankyung’s face, down his jaw, down his neck. Siwon let his hands pull off that shirt, push down the pants. He heard the sigh into his ear as he wrapped his hand around Hankyung.
So long.
Much too long.
It burned, the kisses, the touches, the feel of skin on skin, so different from the quick job in the bathroom, so much better, so much nicer, so much more complete. It drove Siwon insane, the way Hankyung grabbed onto his shoulders, the way those legs wrapped around his waist. He couldn’t think, much less breath.
It was all about moving together, listening to the rapid increase in both their breathing. It was about the way Hankyung whispered in his ear, the way he whispered the same words back, the way they climbed higher and higher. It was about feeling and loving and being together.
Siwon didn’t understand. He didn’t know how he was able to control himself, how he was able to take this slow, to make this matter, to make this mean everything. He didn’t understand how the sudden desperate desire had turned into this.
He didn’t know until he and Hankyung were both yelling and reaching for each other, some place to hold onto. Their hands found each other and when Siwon looked into Hankyung’s eyes he understood.
He was in love with this man, had always been in love with this man, would probably always be in love with this man.
And the best part was that Hankyung loved him too.
A/N: So there we go and I hope everyone liked it and that you all come back for the epilogue and the side stories. I am going to try to get the epilogue up before the end of this week, but classes start tomorrow so I am going to be sort of kind of busy but probably not really until next week. Either way, I love you all and wait for me I will be back! =) I'm going to change the posting I do, less frequent I am afraid =/ But I love you all and I promise some more Shihan in the future. This sounds like I'm saying goodbye XD I still have the epilogue and the side stories! And just for those who are curious, I have a hanhae/eunhae, a qmi/zhouchul, kangteuk/yeteuk, and I already posted the Kyumin =)
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OH SIHAN
THEY'RE LIKE, MY SECOND FAVORITE (afterkyuwook)
SIHAN... just ... i love it!!
honestly i thoguht hanchul was like, the best pairing for hangeng... but im so wrong. after SJM, sihan all the way, and even before that ah, okay yeah im not making any sense.
"and the best part was hankyung loved him too"
OH GENG. OH SIWON. OH SIHAN.
okay yeah im done squealing about it
'Current Location: In bed with Sihan'
.... DUDE, REALLY? WHILE THEY ARE HAVING HOTAMAZINGSMEXYNESS IN IT? wow, i applaud you. i'd die of external bleeding.
okay so back to your story.
i think i need to go reread it. it deserves a reread. im going to reread it. YEAH. i loved reading the descriptions on siwon, i can just sense the urge that he has for seeing hangeng and.... etc for hangeng. good. very good. just awesome. :)
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I am so glad you liked it! fjakshfkajs Heechul!!!!!! Hanchul!!!!!!!!!!!! ;_; I love them (XD yes i do. I love pairing Geng with siwon and heechul and I can't write one without thinking of the other. I say let's write both!)
I love SJM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Henry and Zhou Mi and Kyuhyun and Siwon and and and they are all so sdhfdas and they all belong together in that group obviously!
You can go on. I love squealing!
Yes with sihan! And yes I lived XD Nope nope if I died then I wouldn't get to see them or be so close to them. I can die after they leave =)
Thank you so much and I am so glad you liked it and thank you for the nice comment and I'll try to update the epilogue as soon as I can!
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(lol, im recalling that one video when siwon said that exact same line about hangeng's body, I HOPE YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT if not tell me and i will definitely send you the video)
:D
epilogue~~
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I know! I watched! I loved! "so so sexy" shjdjfhsa siwon is beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!