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static_abyss) wrote2010-09-03 09:58 am
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My Name is Kangin (part 1)
A/N: Here goes my first Super Junior fanfic! Tell me what you think
"Get away from me loser." the young man spat taking a step back.
"Please." Kangin called hating himself for begging. "Whatever it was, I’ll fix it. But, please, please stay."
"Stop begging, it doesn’t suit you. I don’t even know what I saw in you in the first place."
"Yunho-sshi, please..." Kangin whispered going after Yunho "let me go. You’re pathetic."
Kangin’s hand dropped to his side. His face burned red from being humiliated in front of all the Super Junior members and their managers. But, still, he couldn’t help the sob that escaped his lips as he watched Yunho, the man that he loved, walk away. you’re pathetic . The words echoed in his head and he fell to the ground. He bit his lip to keeps his sobs in. But they escaped anyway. He felt so cold, so tired, so alone. He felt his heart shatter and then two arms wrapped around him.
"I’m right here hyung." Sungmin said holding him close. .
Kangin was so shocked he stopped crying. He looked up and all of Super Junior was there offering some comfort. Kangin's eyes searched for the one hyung he knew would always want there. But, he only caught a glimpse of Leeteuk as he left without a backward glance. Kangin didn’t think it was possible to have his heart break anymore than it already was, but watching the last person he could count on leave, broke him. And it was only Sungmin's arms around him that kept him together.
***MEANWHILE***
Leeteuk pushed open the doors to the recording room. He looked around until he spotted the tell tale blond hair of Yunho. There was only one though in Leeteuk’s head as he made his way to the blond who was even at that moment flirting with the receptionist. All he could see was Kangin’s broken face and hear the words Yunho had spoken. He walked slowly trying to control his anger.
"Ah Leeteuk-sshi." Yunho called seeing him. "did you come looking for me?"
"Yes I did."
"What?" Yunho smirked. "do you want to be Kangin’s replacement?" Yunho's smirking face burned in front of Leeteuk’s face before he pulled his hand back and slammed his fist in it.
***
Leeteuk sat with his back against Yesung’s legs. He was tired. He had never been and never would be a morning person. Leeteuk had been up since four in the morning and pretty soon he would officially have been up for 24 hours. He ran a hand through his short hair and moved to the couch. The members of Super Junior were all over at his dorm for the night. From his new position he had a clear view of Kangin.
The younger man was wearing a hat over his short hair and as Leeteuk watched him, he couldn’t help but want to run his hands through the hair he knew was under that same hat. He watched as Sungmin cameover and whispered something that made Kangin laugh. Leeteuk couldn’t help the stab of jealousy that went through him as he watched Sungmin intertwine his fingers with Kangin’s.
He felt something in his heart tighten when the object of his love placed a kiss on Sungmin’s forehead. At that moment he would give anything to be Sungmin and to have Kangin look at him like that.
"You left, hyung."
Leeteuk’s head snapped to the right and almost banged against Yesung’s. "I left?"
"Yes," Yesung answered throwing himself into a more relaxed position on the couch, "that night when Kangin-sshi needed you there that night Yunho dumped him. He needed all of us there, but especially you hyung. But, you left. We never even knew why. Sungmin was there. You can’t blame Kangin for holding on to the one person who held him up when he needed it."
"Is that what you think? That I left?" Leeteuk asked his eyes now on Heechul and Hankyung.
He couldn’t help but hate the way Hankyung unconsciously tightened his hold on Heechul when someone made fun of his hyung. He hated the way Heechul’s eyes brightened at every word Hankyung said. He even hated the way Donghae defended Eunhyuk from the others as Eunhyuk slept on his shoulder. But even as he hated, he knew he didn’t hate his dongsaengs. He just wished he were them and that Kangin was in his arms.
"Leeteuk-sshi?" Leeteuk looked up slowly. He hadn’t realized Yesung was still talking to him.
"Yes?" he asked. "you had your chance."
"I never did. What chance did I have? He was with Yunho and I never got my chance."
"You left." Yesung said simply.
"I had to leave."
"You should have stayed. If you had that would be you with Kangin."
"I know!" Leeteuk said jumping up."Don’t you think I know that?!" with that he stalked off, ignoring the looks from his dongsaengs and striding over to his room.
"Leeteuk! Teukie!" Yesung called as the door to Leeteuk’s room slammed shut.Yesung ran a hand through his short dark hair and stared after super junior's leader.
"Is something wrong with Leeteuk-sshi?" Kyuhyun asked as everyone turned to look at Yesung.
"No." Yesung answered. “he’s not feeling too well, that's all. I’ll go talk to him."
It wasn’t long before the other members went back to their conversations, all except Sungmin. He was looking at his boyfriend. He was the only one who saw the longing look in Kangin’s eyes as he watched Yesung slip into Leeteuk’s room.
A/N: so what do you guys think? oh and credits for this awesome layout/code go to viktorialouise/minty_peach
"Get away from me loser." the young man spat taking a step back.
"Please." Kangin called hating himself for begging. "Whatever it was, I’ll fix it. But, please, please stay."
"Stop begging, it doesn’t suit you. I don’t even know what I saw in you in the first place."
"Yunho-sshi, please..." Kangin whispered going after Yunho "let me go. You’re pathetic."
Kangin’s hand dropped to his side. His face burned red from being humiliated in front of all the Super Junior members and their managers. But, still, he couldn’t help the sob that escaped his lips as he watched Yunho, the man that he loved, walk away. you’re pathetic . The words echoed in his head and he fell to the ground. He bit his lip to keeps his sobs in. But they escaped anyway. He felt so cold, so tired, so alone. He felt his heart shatter and then two arms wrapped around him.
"I’m right here hyung." Sungmin said holding him close. .
Kangin was so shocked he stopped crying. He looked up and all of Super Junior was there offering some comfort. Kangin's eyes searched for the one hyung he knew would always want there. But, he only caught a glimpse of Leeteuk as he left without a backward glance. Kangin didn’t think it was possible to have his heart break anymore than it already was, but watching the last person he could count on leave, broke him. And it was only Sungmin's arms around him that kept him together.
***MEANWHILE***
Leeteuk pushed open the doors to the recording room. He looked around until he spotted the tell tale blond hair of Yunho. There was only one though in Leeteuk’s head as he made his way to the blond who was even at that moment flirting with the receptionist. All he could see was Kangin’s broken face and hear the words Yunho had spoken. He walked slowly trying to control his anger.
"Ah Leeteuk-sshi." Yunho called seeing him. "did you come looking for me?"
"Yes I did."
"What?" Yunho smirked. "do you want to be Kangin’s replacement?" Yunho's smirking face burned in front of Leeteuk’s face before he pulled his hand back and slammed his fist in it.
***
Leeteuk sat with his back against Yesung’s legs. He was tired. He had never been and never would be a morning person. Leeteuk had been up since four in the morning and pretty soon he would officially have been up for 24 hours. He ran a hand through his short hair and moved to the couch. The members of Super Junior were all over at his dorm for the night. From his new position he had a clear view of Kangin.
The younger man was wearing a hat over his short hair and as Leeteuk watched him, he couldn’t help but want to run his hands through the hair he knew was under that same hat. He watched as Sungmin cameover and whispered something that made Kangin laugh. Leeteuk couldn’t help the stab of jealousy that went through him as he watched Sungmin intertwine his fingers with Kangin’s.
He felt something in his heart tighten when the object of his love placed a kiss on Sungmin’s forehead. At that moment he would give anything to be Sungmin and to have Kangin look at him like that.
"You left, hyung."
Leeteuk’s head snapped to the right and almost banged against Yesung’s. "I left?"
"Yes," Yesung answered throwing himself into a more relaxed position on the couch, "that night when Kangin-sshi needed you there that night Yunho dumped him. He needed all of us there, but especially you hyung. But, you left. We never even knew why. Sungmin was there. You can’t blame Kangin for holding on to the one person who held him up when he needed it."
"Is that what you think? That I left?" Leeteuk asked his eyes now on Heechul and Hankyung.
He couldn’t help but hate the way Hankyung unconsciously tightened his hold on Heechul when someone made fun of his hyung. He hated the way Heechul’s eyes brightened at every word Hankyung said. He even hated the way Donghae defended Eunhyuk from the others as Eunhyuk slept on his shoulder. But even as he hated, he knew he didn’t hate his dongsaengs. He just wished he were them and that Kangin was in his arms.
"Leeteuk-sshi?" Leeteuk looked up slowly. He hadn’t realized Yesung was still talking to him.
"Yes?" he asked. "you had your chance."
"I never did. What chance did I have? He was with Yunho and I never got my chance."
"You left." Yesung said simply.
"I had to leave."
"You should have stayed. If you had that would be you with Kangin."
"I know!" Leeteuk said jumping up."Don’t you think I know that?!" with that he stalked off, ignoring the looks from his dongsaengs and striding over to his room.
"Leeteuk! Teukie!" Yesung called as the door to Leeteuk’s room slammed shut.Yesung ran a hand through his short dark hair and stared after super junior's leader.
"Is something wrong with Leeteuk-sshi?" Kyuhyun asked as everyone turned to look at Yesung.
"No." Yesung answered. “he’s not feeling too well, that's all. I’ll go talk to him."
It wasn’t long before the other members went back to their conversations, all except Sungmin. He was looking at his boyfriend. He was the only one who saw the longing look in Kangin’s eyes as he watched Yesung slip into Leeteuk’s room.
A/N: so what do you guys think? oh and credits for this awesome layout/code go to viktorialouise/minty_peach
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THANKS FOR READINGG AND COMMENTING! you don't know how happy you made me :D
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this is your first fanfic!???
this is sooo goood!!!
*vv* i really like this! teukie... punching someone <3333
but ): he didn't MEAN to leave D:< don't gang up on him dammit!lol
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kangin-ah, kangin-ah can't you see? teuk being a badass for you
um, is this going to be an eventual kangteuk?
please say yes ;~;
OR ELSElol update!
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even though, I love the Kangmin tidbits lol
I see my bias up there in your banner and it makes my beast awfully happy. luvchuu
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