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Things Happen III 9/11
A/N: *sob* OMG so I went to see some SS2 HanGeng focused videos XD yeah I am so biased it’s not even funny…so yeah there I was watching them and OMG I just love HanGeng. I want oneeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =( I really, really, really want a HanGeng. *sigh* OKAY! Back to normal =) Hi there dears. I love you all. Now, I know what everyone is going to think as soon as they read whatever comes after this really long introduction to what I am about to say and I just want you all to know that I love you all dears and thank you so much for all the support and the comments <3 So, like I have said so many times before: it is only fair I warn you…*hides* It’s not that bad I swear. It’s going to be over so quick no one will notice a thing. Okay so with that in mind enjoy the chapter =)
Yesung really wanted to tell Hankyung. He really wanted to tell Hankyung. He just didn’t know how especially since Siwon had “dated” Heechul.
“I’m not with Wookie anymore.” He said wondering how to sugar coat what had happened.
“And?”
“And what?” Yesung asked still thinking.
“I don’t know why you want me to drag it out of you.” Hankyung paused to smirk. “Should I do what I used to do before when I wanted you to tell me something?”
Yesung rolled his eyes. “I could do it too if I wanted. Or did you forget who it was that begged at night?”
Yesung enjoyed the flush on Hankyung’s face. It was a victory, no matter how small.
“Point taken. Truce?”
Yesung smirked. “Truce.”
“Alright, so tell me what happened with Wook.” Hankyung said.
Yesung frowned. How should he tell this story? He considered just telling Hankyung the truth, but he didn’t want to ruin the high Hankyung was on from having gotten back together with Heechul.
“He wasn’t too upset over it. He was in the beginning. He wanted to know what he had done wrong and all of that, but the more we talked about it the better it seemed. He’s after this other guy at the moment.”
Or guys more like it.
“Already?” Hankyung frowned.
Yesung shrugged. “To tell you the truth, I knew he was looking for someone else way before he even started paying too much attention to him. And I kind of had my eye on someone else too.”
He saw the interested look Hankyung gave him and he regretted saying the last part. Now, Hankyung would want to know who it was and that was another argument he didn’t want to have.
“Can I ask who this guy is?”
Yesung shuffled his feet on the floor and bit his bottom lip.
“You’re not going to like it, but I’ll tell you if you tell me what happened with Heechul.”
Yesung knew that Hankyung knew exactly who he was talking about the minute the words “not going to like it” came out of his mouth, but he didn’t say anything.
“Yesung.”
He almost smiled at the warning in Hankyung’s voice. He looked and saw that Siwon and Heechul were coming their way.
“Heechul.” Yesung said hoping to distract his currently blond friend.
“Stop trying to distract me.” Hankyung continued unaware of the two men behind him. “I’m not telling you what happened until you tell me who it is. Yesung, it better not be—“
Yesung saw the raised eyebrow look from Heechul. He offered an apologetic smile.
“Oh, I’m sorry. Am I interrupting a lover’s quarrel?” Heechul said cutting off Hankyung.
Yesung watched Hankyung turn and look straight at Siwon. He averted his eyes not wanting to give anything away and knowing that his face was telling Hankyung everything.
“Siwon.” Hankyung said in a voice so sweet it surprised Yesung.
“Yes hyung?” Siwon answered in an equally polite voice his eyes wide and accepting.
Yesung frowned. What was this? When had Siwon become this polite, innocent creature?
“How are you kid?”
“I’m not a kid hyung, but I’m fine. Why do you ask?”
Yesung gaped. Seriously, what was wrong with Siwon?
“I like to get to know people before I have to hurt them. You can ask Donghae about that and Ryeowook. But, don’t put too much thought into that. I am a very peaceful person as long as you stay away from what’s mine.”
Yesung exchanged a look with Heechul. They both knew who Hankyung was talking about and neither liked it.
“As long as you stay away from what was mine.” Hankyung clarified after a pause.
Yesung looked down at his feet. He stood there as Heechul distracted Hankyung. He was vaguely aware of what they were saying when he felt an arm sneak around his shoulders. He looked up and there was Siwon.
“Do you understand these two?” he asked leaning down.
“Nope. I don’t.” Yesung answered as they started walking. “They’re a mystery to everyone, but themselves.”
Yesung watched Siwon. He saw the small frown in the other man’s face and wondered what was wrong. He considered asking then stopped. Did he have the right to ask?
“Yesung, hyung, did you really date Hankyung hyung?”
Yesung shrugged. “Yes.”
Siwon nodded and said nothing, but he let go of Yesung.
“I have to go.” Siwon said. “I’ll see you around hyung.”
Yesung watched Siwon leave and wondered what happened.
***
Yesung was watching Siwon from his seat. The other man had been completely ignoring him for seven days now. Sure, they talked, but it was always polite small talk. There was no more teasing, nothing.
Siwon was slowly brainwashing everyone. He had taken over Eunhyuk and Donghae completely. He was such a sweet talker that even those two now laughed whenever Siwon hugged either of them. And Siwon did a lot of hugging. He had that annoying habit of throwing an arm around anyone’s shoulder and leaning down. Or if not that, then Siwon would hold a hand, blow a kiss. It was so annoying.
“Han hyung.” Siwon was saying, one arm around Hankyung. “I have something to tell you.”
“What?”
“I love you.”
Yesung frowned at the laughter. Hankyung wasn’t even angry anymore. Hankyung hadn’t gotten the least bit defensive whenever Siwon was with Yesung. He couldn’t even count on Hankyung anymore. Siwon had taken him too.
“I love you too Siwon.”
“Hey! Back off Siwon, he’s mine.” Eunhyuk said pushing his way in between the two tall men.
“No, you’re mine.” Donghae said trying to pull Eunhyuk away.
Yesung watched them for a while and then had to look away when Heechul stood up, a murderous look in his eyes. He really didn’t want to see Siwon holding on to Hankyung desperately. He wanted to go punch Siwon for making sure he had fun on their one and only date and then ignoring him.
Was he jealous?
No.
He couldn’t be. What did he care that Siwon gave everyone that one armed hug he thought was reserved for him. What did he care that Siwon had everyone on his side. What did he care that everyone thought Siwon was such a gentleman, but him. He didn’t care. He was so beyond caring it wasn’t even funny.
“So, when are you two going to come out and tell us?” Sungmin asked eyeing Siwon and Yesung.
“Tell you what?” Yesung asked.
“Tell us about you two dating?” Kyuhyun said as if Yesung was dumb for not knowing what they were talking about.
“Oh, we’re not dating.” Siwon said.
Yesung didn’t know why he cared so much. He knew they weren’t dating. He knew that one time was exactly that, one time. Siwon hadn’t asked him out again even after he’d given him the hint, so who was he to expect anything. He knew they weren’t dating. He knew.
And still, it hurt to hear Siwon voice it like that, as if it didn’t matter, as if it were no big deal, as if just the thought of them dating was amusing.
“Jerk.” Yesung murmured so quietly that only Kyuhyun who was next to him heard.
The youngest of them all looked at him and asked the question without words. Yesung ignored him.
“You’re not dating?” Kyuhyun asked and Yesung wanted to hit him.
“No,” Yesung scoffed. “Can you imagine me with him? Now, excuse me, I have to go see where Wookie went.”
He knew Siwon was looking at him and he didn’t care. If that’s how things were then he didn’t need to care. He could do what he wanted. That’s what Siwon was telling him, that he was free, not committed and if he wanted to go fine Ryeowook he could.
Now, Yesung had no intention of finding Ryeowook. He was done with that bad decision. What he wanted instead was for Siwon to catch up to him and tell him that he had been stupid, that he was wrong, that he really did want to date Yesung.
But, Siwon didn’t run after him. Siwon didn’t even call him back. Yesung had been alone in his room for almost an hour before Siwon showed up.
“What are you doing here?” he asked looking away. “Who even let you in here?”
“Hankyung hyung.” Siwon answered. “I didn’t come earlier because I didn’t want to interrupt you and Wookie.”
Yesung glared at the anger in Siwon’s voice. What right did he have to be angry? Who gave him permission to be angry?
“That’s cute.” Yesung said. “It almost seems like you’re angry.”
“I am angry Yesung.” Siwon sighed running a hand through his perfectly combed hair.
Yesung watched the hairs that stuck up. He wanted to reach over and put them back in place, but he didn’t. He leaned back on his bed and looked at the ceiling. He wasn’t leaving. This was his room and Siwon was the one who had to leave.
“Why would you be angry?” Yesung asked finally.
“Because,” Siwon said. “Look at me.”
Yesung obliged. When their eyes met he almost believed that Siwon was sorry. Almost.
“What?” Yesung asked. “What are you going to tell me? That you didn’t mean what you said? That you did mean it? That you don’t care? Whatever it is, say it so I can go do something else.”
It had come out harsher than Yesung had originally intended, but he was upset.
“Yesung, how can I tell you this without it sounding mean?” Siwon said starting to pace. “You’re so much more experienced than I am. I don’t know what to do when I’m with you. I don’t know if what I’m doing is right. I don’t know anything and you don’t deserve that. You deserve someone who can make you happy. I’m pretty much useless for you. That’s why I didn’t ask you about our second date. That’s why I left you alone.”
Siwon sighed and turned to Yesung with pleading eyes. But, Yesung didn’t know what to say. He had pretty much blanked out after the “I don’t know what to do when I’m with you” part. Was Choi Siwon really that insecure when it came to him?
“Siwon,” Yesung said getting up. “Why would you have to compare and to who? Ryeowook? Hankyung?”
“Both, because,” Siwon said exasperated. “You know what that’s like and you were happy. And what if what I have to offer isn’t good enough? What if I can’t make you happy? What if you decide you’re better off without me? I wouldn’t know what to do, if I were to fall in love with you and then have you leave me. And it’s no use, if I ever let you see who I was and if you ever let me see who you were, I would fall in love. I think I’m half in love with you already and I don’t want to be hurt.”
Yesung walked over and peered up at Siwon. He waited until their eyes met and then he touched Siwon’s cheek.
“How are we ever going to find out if we never try?” He said. “I want to try. But, if you don’t, it’s okay too.”
He waited and when Siwon didn’t answer he nodded.
“I’m sorry.” Siwon whispered.
Yesung offered him a small smile. “It’s okay. We all have to do what’s best for us.”
“I’m really sorry Yesung.” Siwon said. “I wish I were more like you. I wish I wasn’t afraid to try, but I am. I’m a pathetic excuse of a man and I’m afraid.”
Yesung wanted to tell him that it was alright, that he understood, that it would be fine, that he would move on. But, he said nothing. He just watched the tortured look on Siwon’s face and said nothing as the other man turned to leave.
“I’m really sorry too.” Yesung said.
He watched Siwon turn. They looked at each other and for a second everything stopped. Yesung couldn’t move as Siwon came to him. He just opened his arms and wrapped them around Siwon as the other man pulled him close. They stayed that way for a few seconds, neither wanting to breathe for fear that they would scare the other away. It was Siwon who moved first his hands moving up to cradle Yesung’s face.
“I’m so sorry.” Siwon whispered moving closer.
Yesung closed his eyes. He melted into that touch, tried to memorize it, knew he wouldn’t be feeling it any time soon. He wanted to open his eyes to see Siwon’s face the way it was now, open and free. But, he didn’t have time to because suddenly Siwon’s lips were on his.
And then, he didn’t care. He reached blindly for something to hold on to and found his hands in Siwon’s hair. He ran his hand through it wanting to mess it up, to destroy some of that perfection that surrounded Siwon. He wanted to see the real Siwon, the one that peeked out whenever they were this close.
It was Yesung who pulled away first, even though it was Siwon who refused to try. It was Yesung who stepped back even as Siwon’s hands tightened around him. And it was Yesung who left even though it was his room.
A/N: *hides* OMG I AM SORRY!!!!!!! *hugs you all* I know I know I know. I am so mean to them. Yeah, I know whyyyy??????? Well...*hugs Siwon and protects him from angry Yesung fans* He doesn't know any better. And there are still two chapters left and I will make it up to you all on the last chapter and yeah...uh...it'll be over before you even know it. I mean it's not going to be like the Eunhae or Hanchul. I promise okay. And yeah...I love you all dears and I finished chapter 10 and am almost done with chapter 11 which is going to be fun D: I promise! <3 Oh yeah and it's been exactly 4 months since I wrote my first Super Junior fanfic yay! *throws confetti over laptop* It was handwritten and it was before I had an LJ and I was in Las Vegas and I didn't post it until September and it was the first KangTeuk I posted here called My Name Is Kangin. *dries happy tears* Thanks for all the support guys =) *hugs you all some more* Someone should totally write me a jealous Hanchul fic or a YeHan or a Sihan or a KyuHan ;) But anyway thanks so much seriously for all the support <3
Yesung really wanted to tell Hankyung. He really wanted to tell Hankyung. He just didn’t know how especially since Siwon had “dated” Heechul.
“I’m not with Wookie anymore.” He said wondering how to sugar coat what had happened.
“And?”
“And what?” Yesung asked still thinking.
“I don’t know why you want me to drag it out of you.” Hankyung paused to smirk. “Should I do what I used to do before when I wanted you to tell me something?”
Yesung rolled his eyes. “I could do it too if I wanted. Or did you forget who it was that begged at night?”
Yesung enjoyed the flush on Hankyung’s face. It was a victory, no matter how small.
“Point taken. Truce?”
Yesung smirked. “Truce.”
“Alright, so tell me what happened with Wook.” Hankyung said.
Yesung frowned. How should he tell this story? He considered just telling Hankyung the truth, but he didn’t want to ruin the high Hankyung was on from having gotten back together with Heechul.
“He wasn’t too upset over it. He was in the beginning. He wanted to know what he had done wrong and all of that, but the more we talked about it the better it seemed. He’s after this other guy at the moment.”
Or guys more like it.
“Already?” Hankyung frowned.
Yesung shrugged. “To tell you the truth, I knew he was looking for someone else way before he even started paying too much attention to him. And I kind of had my eye on someone else too.”
He saw the interested look Hankyung gave him and he regretted saying the last part. Now, Hankyung would want to know who it was and that was another argument he didn’t want to have.
“Can I ask who this guy is?”
Yesung shuffled his feet on the floor and bit his bottom lip.
“You’re not going to like it, but I’ll tell you if you tell me what happened with Heechul.”
Yesung knew that Hankyung knew exactly who he was talking about the minute the words “not going to like it” came out of his mouth, but he didn’t say anything.
“Yesung.”
He almost smiled at the warning in Hankyung’s voice. He looked and saw that Siwon and Heechul were coming their way.
“Heechul.” Yesung said hoping to distract his currently blond friend.
“Stop trying to distract me.” Hankyung continued unaware of the two men behind him. “I’m not telling you what happened until you tell me who it is. Yesung, it better not be—“
Yesung saw the raised eyebrow look from Heechul. He offered an apologetic smile.
“Oh, I’m sorry. Am I interrupting a lover’s quarrel?” Heechul said cutting off Hankyung.
Yesung watched Hankyung turn and look straight at Siwon. He averted his eyes not wanting to give anything away and knowing that his face was telling Hankyung everything.
“Siwon.” Hankyung said in a voice so sweet it surprised Yesung.
“Yes hyung?” Siwon answered in an equally polite voice his eyes wide and accepting.
Yesung frowned. What was this? When had Siwon become this polite, innocent creature?
“How are you kid?”
“I’m not a kid hyung, but I’m fine. Why do you ask?”
Yesung gaped. Seriously, what was wrong with Siwon?
“I like to get to know people before I have to hurt them. You can ask Donghae about that and Ryeowook. But, don’t put too much thought into that. I am a very peaceful person as long as you stay away from what’s mine.”
Yesung exchanged a look with Heechul. They both knew who Hankyung was talking about and neither liked it.
“As long as you stay away from what was mine.” Hankyung clarified after a pause.
Yesung looked down at his feet. He stood there as Heechul distracted Hankyung. He was vaguely aware of what they were saying when he felt an arm sneak around his shoulders. He looked up and there was Siwon.
“Do you understand these two?” he asked leaning down.
“Nope. I don’t.” Yesung answered as they started walking. “They’re a mystery to everyone, but themselves.”
Yesung watched Siwon. He saw the small frown in the other man’s face and wondered what was wrong. He considered asking then stopped. Did he have the right to ask?
“Yesung, hyung, did you really date Hankyung hyung?”
Yesung shrugged. “Yes.”
Siwon nodded and said nothing, but he let go of Yesung.
“I have to go.” Siwon said. “I’ll see you around hyung.”
Yesung watched Siwon leave and wondered what happened.
***
Yesung was watching Siwon from his seat. The other man had been completely ignoring him for seven days now. Sure, they talked, but it was always polite small talk. There was no more teasing, nothing.
Siwon was slowly brainwashing everyone. He had taken over Eunhyuk and Donghae completely. He was such a sweet talker that even those two now laughed whenever Siwon hugged either of them. And Siwon did a lot of hugging. He had that annoying habit of throwing an arm around anyone’s shoulder and leaning down. Or if not that, then Siwon would hold a hand, blow a kiss. It was so annoying.
“Han hyung.” Siwon was saying, one arm around Hankyung. “I have something to tell you.”
“What?”
“I love you.”
Yesung frowned at the laughter. Hankyung wasn’t even angry anymore. Hankyung hadn’t gotten the least bit defensive whenever Siwon was with Yesung. He couldn’t even count on Hankyung anymore. Siwon had taken him too.
“I love you too Siwon.”
“Hey! Back off Siwon, he’s mine.” Eunhyuk said pushing his way in between the two tall men.
“No, you’re mine.” Donghae said trying to pull Eunhyuk away.
Yesung watched them for a while and then had to look away when Heechul stood up, a murderous look in his eyes. He really didn’t want to see Siwon holding on to Hankyung desperately. He wanted to go punch Siwon for making sure he had fun on their one and only date and then ignoring him.
Was he jealous?
No.
He couldn’t be. What did he care that Siwon gave everyone that one armed hug he thought was reserved for him. What did he care that Siwon had everyone on his side. What did he care that everyone thought Siwon was such a gentleman, but him. He didn’t care. He was so beyond caring it wasn’t even funny.
“So, when are you two going to come out and tell us?” Sungmin asked eyeing Siwon and Yesung.
“Tell you what?” Yesung asked.
“Tell us about you two dating?” Kyuhyun said as if Yesung was dumb for not knowing what they were talking about.
“Oh, we’re not dating.” Siwon said.
Yesung didn’t know why he cared so much. He knew they weren’t dating. He knew that one time was exactly that, one time. Siwon hadn’t asked him out again even after he’d given him the hint, so who was he to expect anything. He knew they weren’t dating. He knew.
And still, it hurt to hear Siwon voice it like that, as if it didn’t matter, as if it were no big deal, as if just the thought of them dating was amusing.
“Jerk.” Yesung murmured so quietly that only Kyuhyun who was next to him heard.
The youngest of them all looked at him and asked the question without words. Yesung ignored him.
“You’re not dating?” Kyuhyun asked and Yesung wanted to hit him.
“No,” Yesung scoffed. “Can you imagine me with him? Now, excuse me, I have to go see where Wookie went.”
He knew Siwon was looking at him and he didn’t care. If that’s how things were then he didn’t need to care. He could do what he wanted. That’s what Siwon was telling him, that he was free, not committed and if he wanted to go fine Ryeowook he could.
Now, Yesung had no intention of finding Ryeowook. He was done with that bad decision. What he wanted instead was for Siwon to catch up to him and tell him that he had been stupid, that he was wrong, that he really did want to date Yesung.
But, Siwon didn’t run after him. Siwon didn’t even call him back. Yesung had been alone in his room for almost an hour before Siwon showed up.
“What are you doing here?” he asked looking away. “Who even let you in here?”
“Hankyung hyung.” Siwon answered. “I didn’t come earlier because I didn’t want to interrupt you and Wookie.”
Yesung glared at the anger in Siwon’s voice. What right did he have to be angry? Who gave him permission to be angry?
“That’s cute.” Yesung said. “It almost seems like you’re angry.”
“I am angry Yesung.” Siwon sighed running a hand through his perfectly combed hair.
Yesung watched the hairs that stuck up. He wanted to reach over and put them back in place, but he didn’t. He leaned back on his bed and looked at the ceiling. He wasn’t leaving. This was his room and Siwon was the one who had to leave.
“Why would you be angry?” Yesung asked finally.
“Because,” Siwon said. “Look at me.”
Yesung obliged. When their eyes met he almost believed that Siwon was sorry. Almost.
“What?” Yesung asked. “What are you going to tell me? That you didn’t mean what you said? That you did mean it? That you don’t care? Whatever it is, say it so I can go do something else.”
It had come out harsher than Yesung had originally intended, but he was upset.
“Yesung, how can I tell you this without it sounding mean?” Siwon said starting to pace. “You’re so much more experienced than I am. I don’t know what to do when I’m with you. I don’t know if what I’m doing is right. I don’t know anything and you don’t deserve that. You deserve someone who can make you happy. I’m pretty much useless for you. That’s why I didn’t ask you about our second date. That’s why I left you alone.”
Siwon sighed and turned to Yesung with pleading eyes. But, Yesung didn’t know what to say. He had pretty much blanked out after the “I don’t know what to do when I’m with you” part. Was Choi Siwon really that insecure when it came to him?
“Siwon,” Yesung said getting up. “Why would you have to compare and to who? Ryeowook? Hankyung?”
“Both, because,” Siwon said exasperated. “You know what that’s like and you were happy. And what if what I have to offer isn’t good enough? What if I can’t make you happy? What if you decide you’re better off without me? I wouldn’t know what to do, if I were to fall in love with you and then have you leave me. And it’s no use, if I ever let you see who I was and if you ever let me see who you were, I would fall in love. I think I’m half in love with you already and I don’t want to be hurt.”
Yesung walked over and peered up at Siwon. He waited until their eyes met and then he touched Siwon’s cheek.
“How are we ever going to find out if we never try?” He said. “I want to try. But, if you don’t, it’s okay too.”
He waited and when Siwon didn’t answer he nodded.
“I’m sorry.” Siwon whispered.
Yesung offered him a small smile. “It’s okay. We all have to do what’s best for us.”
“I’m really sorry Yesung.” Siwon said. “I wish I were more like you. I wish I wasn’t afraid to try, but I am. I’m a pathetic excuse of a man and I’m afraid.”
Yesung wanted to tell him that it was alright, that he understood, that it would be fine, that he would move on. But, he said nothing. He just watched the tortured look on Siwon’s face and said nothing as the other man turned to leave.
“I’m really sorry too.” Yesung said.
He watched Siwon turn. They looked at each other and for a second everything stopped. Yesung couldn’t move as Siwon came to him. He just opened his arms and wrapped them around Siwon as the other man pulled him close. They stayed that way for a few seconds, neither wanting to breathe for fear that they would scare the other away. It was Siwon who moved first his hands moving up to cradle Yesung’s face.
“I’m so sorry.” Siwon whispered moving closer.
Yesung closed his eyes. He melted into that touch, tried to memorize it, knew he wouldn’t be feeling it any time soon. He wanted to open his eyes to see Siwon’s face the way it was now, open and free. But, he didn’t have time to because suddenly Siwon’s lips were on his.
And then, he didn’t care. He reached blindly for something to hold on to and found his hands in Siwon’s hair. He ran his hand through it wanting to mess it up, to destroy some of that perfection that surrounded Siwon. He wanted to see the real Siwon, the one that peeked out whenever they were this close.
It was Yesung who pulled away first, even though it was Siwon who refused to try. It was Yesung who stepped back even as Siwon’s hands tightened around him. And it was Yesung who left even though it was his room.
A/N: *hides* OMG I AM SORRY!!!!!!! *hugs you all* I know I know I know. I am so mean to them. Yeah, I know whyyyy??????? Well...*hugs Siwon and protects him from angry Yesung fans* He doesn't know any better. And there are still two chapters left and I will make it up to you all on the last chapter and yeah...uh...it'll be over before you even know it. I mean it's not going to be like the Eunhae or Hanchul. I promise okay. And yeah...I love you all dears and I finished chapter 10 and am almost done with chapter 11 which is going to be fun D: I promise! <3 Oh yeah and it's been exactly 4 months since I wrote my first Super Junior fanfic yay! *throws confetti over laptop* It was handwritten and it was before I had an LJ and I was in Las Vegas and I didn't post it until September and it was the first KangTeuk I posted here called My Name Is Kangin. *dries happy tears* Thanks for all the support guys =) *hugs you all some more* Someone should totally write me a jealous Hanchul fic or a YeHan or a Sihan or a KyuHan ;) But anyway thanks so much seriously for all the support <3
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